On Heart Openings – Steve Beckow @ Golden Age of Gaia

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On Heart Openings

I promised the Mother that I’d say more about heart openings, given that she’s predicted one for the planet at a time of her choosing.

Let me do that now.

We have several hearts. The physical heart, the heart chakra, the “high heart,” the spiritual heart, etc.

I’m only speaking about the spiritual heart.

The spirit occupying a physical body from birth to death normally exists with no access to the spiritual heart. The heart aperture which Hindus call the hridayam, which opens into the heart, is normally closed.

So just to be sure: I’m not talking about an attitude of “open-heartedness” or “close-heartedness.”  The normal Earthly, human condition is to have a closed heart aperture.

Those for whom the heart is permanently opened are ascended beings.

Those for whom the heart has opened and then closed again are relatively small in number.

Those for whom the heart has opened and remained open – and they have remained in this dimensional setting – are probably infinitesimal in number. Not infinitesimal in the higher domains. Just here. I can think only of Ramana Maharshi and the avatars (Ramakrishna, Buddha, Shankara, etc.).

When the heart opens – and the Mother has said it may feel like an explosion or implosion – whether immediately or later, we’ll experience a torrent of love that will wipe us clean, for however long the experience lasts.

It’ll leave us in a space where our heart becomes an artesian well, gushing up love which we feel powerless to do anything else with than share with everyone around us. By its nature, love is universal. It makes no distinctions. It cannot be otherwise by the nature of love.


This next section may be review to many. Skip it if you like.

Apparently, by the old system of reckoning, a heart opening would be reckoned to be the first stage of enlightenment on the road to Ascension.  I know the archangels are not following the old system, but let me restate it, if only to provide a standard for comparison.

When the kundalini reaches the fourth or heart chakra, we have a heart opening, an explosive or implosive experience of love bursting its bonds. Hindus call it spiritual awakening; Buddhists call it stream-entering. We’ve entered the stream on our way to the other bank.

When the kundalini reaches the sixth chakra, we have an experience of being one with the Consciousness pervading the whole world – the Divine Mother. Some call the experience cosmic consciousness. Some call it savikalpa samadhi – still mind/trance state while still apprehending form.

When the kundalini reaches the seventh chakra, we have an experience of the Consciousness transcending the world – the Father.  Some call it Brahmajnana or God-Realization.  Some call it (Kevalya) Nirvikalpa Samadhi – still mind/trance state with no apprehension of form.

This is halfway up the mountain.

Next the kundalini opens the heart permanently in an experience called Sahaja Nirvikalpa Samadhi (“Sahaja” means “natural”). This event is mukti or liberation from the life-and-death cycle of Third Dimensionality. This is the end point of Earth’s current Ascension out of the Third and Fourth Dimensions and into the Fifth and higher.


If your everyday experience is simply so-so and you suddenly find yourself in an internal “tsunami of love,” it can frighten the wits out of you.

Did someone slip you a drug? Are you losing it? Where is it leading?

No one slipped you a drug. You’re not losing it. It’s leading only to more and more love and greater and greater depths of it.

The only thing you lose as a result of drowning in the tsunami of love is your fear, your anxiety, and your resentments. The tsunami sweeps them all away, never to return, as long as your experience of the tsunami lasts.

After the culmination of Ascension, it’ll last. From now until then, a heart that opens can again close. If the heart does not close, that’s the signal that you have well and truly completed the journey. We’re all going to that endpoint.

My understanding is that gatekeepers and pillars have agreed only to travel back and forth through the Ascension portal, rather than ascend permanently, until later.


What is the experience of the internal “tsunami of love” like? We use the same word “love” to cover situations ranging from our taste in ice cream to the most sublime of spiritual states. When one person says “love,” other people may hear it at any range from the mundane to the sublime.

The kind of love we experience after a heart opening is not only torrential; it’s the most satisfying experience – along with bliss – that I can think of.

As it happens, we seem to be most stirred, moved, and activated by what happens inside of us – chiefly our feelings, but also our desires. Love turns out to be everything we’ve been seeking in that our internal states are all uniformly satisfying. That’s why loving people seem so happy.

Introduce higher-dimensional love into our field of experience and our interest in all else falls away. It feels so uplifting that we forget about any cares or concerns we had.

It’s more intoxicating than any drink, more satisfying than any drug. It never seems to fail to delight. It’s as Yogananda said: Ever-new. I’ve never grown tired of love or wanted something different. Oh yes, I almost forgot. Things go better with love. Nuff said.

Mother have I done the job? I could only do it by looking at things from my angle.  If anyone else has a view from theirs, send it along.




From Self-Commands to Self-Constructions – Steve Beckow @ Golden Age of Gaia

Chenrezig (Tibetan) Avalokiteshvara (Sanskrit)


From Self-Commands to Self-Constructions

With Kathleen’s help, I continue to deconstruct my persona, personality, or constructed self.

Why do that? Because in eliminating the walls and barriers that we erect to protect ourselves from perceived threats and harm, we lose our freedom to respond – our response-ability. We become robots who respond to each incident according to a preconceived program.

And I need to liberate my freedom to respond if I’m to live a life of service rather than one of self-aggrandizement.

Given how hectic and challenging life will be after the Reval, I need to drop as much of my programing as possible now.

Many extroverts will have done the polishing long ago, so far as it relates to social skills. But, because of my vasanas, I have neglected social skills for most of my scholarly life.

So this period of waiting is a blessing for the space it allows me to polish the statue, as Plotinus said. (1)


Each insight brings me a step closer to seeing the entire system.

Tracking back my stuck places to the earliest traumatic incidents, again and again I arrive at the crib where I’m tied to the sides to prevent me from scratching. I had excema.

I’ve already uncovered messages to myself like “”you can’t trust anyone” (conclusion) and “I won’t be tied me down” (decision).

Today, doing dyads with Kathleen (taking two ten-minute turns each, during which we share without interruption), I saw that the crib incident led to the building of a whole defensive system that I can track back to a lifetime as an army general in the times before Christ.

I was the implacable foe of another empire. Here in this lifetime, the restraint in the crib awakened the same sort of aggressive mind set. There is a felt fit, a distinct resonance, between the two memories. (2)

The self-commands that I worked with today are “I’m all alone,” “I have to take care of myself,” and “I have to protect myself.”

I saw that the crib restraints were enough to bend me in the direction of protectiveness.  My parents lost my trust as my protectors and I became my own protector at a very early age.

I became a defensive unit from that moment on, leading to what today I’d describe as grumpiness, disagreeableness, and aggressiveness.

Mine was not a simple decision. Like the best feudal lords, I built a castle with a moat and a portcullis and…

My Dad used to say I had a chip on my shoulder. Our side of the family seemed to specialize in that.  Not in public or work life, but in personal/private life. And certainly when challenged by another.

Just as my Dad used to spend most of his free time in his woodworking shop downstairs, so I used to spend most of my time reading and writing in my room upstairs. That just doubled the sense of isolation that my initial crib program of defenciveness began.

How do we hope to experience love in those self-created circumstances?  Real love is of too high a vibration to break through such density.


If I’m to break free of these self-imposed constraints, I’m going to have to see the whole way of being, the whole system, not just an isolated command.

I used to think that seeing one command was enough, but with a vasana that holds our entire constructed self together, it appears that the whole system needs to be seen and experienced through to completion (whether that takes 5 seconds or five workouts).

It has to be a realization of the nature, makeup, and extent of the entire system to see it disappear. And it’s that gestalt, that realization that I’m courting these days.


The crib incident saw me conclude that my parents had broken trust with me: They were supposed to protect me from harm and, instead, they looked to my infant’s mind as if they were acting like the source of harm.

The adult in me now sees that they were simply trying to keep me from harm. But even accepting their tying me down as necessary comes after a long time of working with the incident. Only then do I know enough about the situation to actually forgive the players.

But without forgiving others and ourselves, as Kathleen has demonstrated in her own life, nothing moves forward. We remain stuck.

It may be that forgiveness is not what’s needed in a certain situation; it may be that we need to apologize to someone else instead.

Whatever is required of us, we’re tearing up the old planks that made up the self-construction that our persona is. This work is vital to being able to serve without being triggered and screwing-up later. It’s also central to our enjoyment of life and to our return to our original “essence of One,” as the Divine Mother called it. (3)

We get back to oneness, in my view, by travelling backwards via the road we came. If we spent each year building fresh layers onto our constructed self, then we now need to take these layers apart, using our awareness to dissolve them.

After all layers are removed, we shine in our native glory. Our original selves – the essence of One – are the default, the residuum of everything.


(1) “Plotinus on “Remaining Here, Ascending Aloft,” 

(2) In a practical sense it doesn’t matter if I’m accurate or not as long as the comparison results in further deconstruction of the behavior pattern. Ultimately, it doesn’t matter if the connection is “made up” or not because I made the whole thing up anyways!

Therapeutic approaches like Gestalt, rule reconstruction, or psychorama draw on imagination as part of the healing process.

Finally, our imagination has the power of creating whatever it is we think about, we’re learning. In the Fifth Dimension, imagination is considered to be “creative thought.”

(2) “The Divine Mother: My Tsunami of Love Will Shift You Permanently,” channeled by Linda Dillon, January 30, 2014, at http://goldenageofgaia.com/2014/02/the-divine-mother-my-tsunami-of-love-will-shift-you-permanently/.


Chenrezig (Tibetan) Avalokiteshvara (Sanskrit)


That World is Nova Earth: An Introduction to Ascension – Part 2/2 – Steve Beckow @ Golden Age of Gaia

Gaia – Holly Sierra Art


That World is Nova Earth: An Introduction to Ascension – Part 2/2

(Concluded from Part 1, yesterday.)

How do we return Home?

We have two options. One is that those of us who choose to do so after Ascension will simply leave off the human experiment and return to our angelic forms.

That’s what’s been promised me, with the added promise of 200 years off – before our next assignment.  Mark that down on your calendar because, apparently, this is our line of work; we’re an Ascension team. (1)

But that’s another story.

Meanwhile, the Mother tells us, we “return to that while keeping [our] magnificent form.” The Mother is creating a new space and a new human form and a new process of Ascension. And we, her legions of angels, are her partners in that creation.

The space that’s being created by our Ascension with our intact physical body is a new space.  The fact that we’re not dying as individuals and ascending from the astral side, like Jesus and Buddha did, is a new Ascension process. We’re pioneers in every way. New space. New bodies. New Ascension process.


The second option after Ascension would be of continuing with the new-human experiment on Nova Earth.

After Ascension, gatekeepers and pillars will probably be relieved of duty and ready to choose between Option 1 and Option 2.

The Mother has just given us, in a nutshell, the trajectory from the One to the essence of the One to angels to humans and has pointed the road back home again.

I’m here till the end. (2) I’m what’s called a pillar.  A pillar pushes the last ones through and then turns out the lights.

Many others of us are what are called gatekeepers. They inspire us and multiply the flow through Ascension – through the pearly gates, so to speak.

Collectively all of us lightworkers – healers, teachers, engineers, etc. – are the leaven in the loaf. We’re the earthly legions of angels who are causing the loaf to rise.

All of us embodied angels doing this are wearing very dense bodies, with their full angelic memory having been put in deep storage and the rest pretty well scrubbed.

Nevertheless, we’re pioneers in the best possible sense, in that we’re exploring the very world we’re simultaneously creating. Many of us are opening new spaces within this new space. In fact all of us are.

Ours is indeed a voyage of discovery to a place where no human has gone before.


Apparently we were here at the creation of the Third-Dimensional world, which at the time was another innovation. And that world existed uncorrupted until the perils of duality overcame it.  (3)

And now here we are again, waiters at the banquet of Ascension from that Third-Dimensional world to a multidimensional paradise. Far from God being punishing, the Mother has rescued us from our own miscreations! We’re prodigal children returning Home and being lovingly received.

Viewed from a different perspective, the Lord hath sent his legions of angels to raise the people up.

Can I speak from my perspective as one of that legion, whose life has been a workshop?

The essence and nectar of my life’s discoveries is that love is the answer to every situation on Earth, every situation in the universe. There’s no other answer in that all other answers – bliss, peace, joy – are simply forms of the very plastic thing we call love.

The Beatles were right: All we need is love.

But it isn’t enough to be islands of love, so to speak. What’s needed for this world to work, what’s needed to build Nova Earth, is that the whole of the planet be in the experience of “real” love, “true” love, “sacred” love – a higher-dimensional love than we here normally experience.

When all of us are permanently and fully immersed in a sea or tsunami or torrent of that form of love, the world will have ascended. And the rising levels of energy we’re simmering in will see that that result is accomplished.  And then the world will work.

It cannot but work. Love will brook no injury.

That world is Nova Earth.


(1) My understanding is that we’ll do this all again in the Seventh Dimension as our Ascension in form into a new space ripples out throughout the universe.

(2) The end or culmination of Ascension is an “ignition” point called Sahaja Samadhi.

(3) The horrors of the Second World War should suggest how bad it got on Planet Earth. And it’s bad again now, for a while.


Gaia – Holly Sierra Art


That World is Nova Earth: An Introduction to Ascension – Part 1/2 – Steve Beckow @ Golden Age of Gaia

Art: Susan Seddon Boulet


That World is Nova Earth: An Introduction to Ascension – Part 1/2

Someone asked me for an introduction to Ascension.

This has become a rather lengthy introduction, a bit more philosophical than many readers may like. Consequently, viewer discretion is advised.

I don’t think I could provide a better introduction than by unfolding a comment the Divine Mother made in Jan. 2014:

“You are angels in form, and you have been birthed even prior to that as the essence of One. So you return to that [i.e., angelic consciousness] while keeping your magnificent form [the transmuted physical body].” (1)

I’ve never heard a more compact statement of what we call “Ascension” than that.

“You are angels in form.” This is a statement we either accept or reject on the basis of whether we deem the information to be credible or not. I deem it to be credible and I accept the statement.

If what the Divine Mother says is correct, then we’re transcendental beings to begin with, never mind the twelve dimensions. That alone should boggle the mind.

No need to go up through the intervening dimensional growth patterns. No need to worry about stages of enlightenment. Just jump out of form and … what? I have no idea.

But think of it. Legions of angels have incarnated. Think of what it would be like if we all suddenly realized the truth of that statement.  Right now it’s simply intellectual knowledge for most of us. We don’t experience it and we haven’t realized the truth of it.

Think of what the world would be like if we all realized that we, collectively, were angels in form, here to do the Mother’s work. That would stop our quarrels, would it not?


Once we’ve digested that, the Mother gives us what for me is a priceless gem.

I’m a student of cross-cultural spirituality. I look to the Mother to give me verification of the most important, the most basic spiritual verities and relationships. And she’s about to describe a really basic relationship here:

“You [angels] have been birthed even prior to that [angelic form] as the essence of One.”

Oh my gosh. The Divine Mother herself has defined the relationship among three primal entities or groups.

The One —-> The essence of One ——-> The angels.

The One gives birth to the essence of One, which essence is the same for all beings, and this undifferentiated essence of the One then branches off to become the various forms – angelic, human, animal, plant, mineral, etc.

I long have had questions on the origin of angels.  Where do they, who are a differentiation in the One, come from?  How do we get from the formless God to them?

Something must be first birthed that is the same for everyone everywhere, a divine spark, a fragment of the One to fit what I saw in my vision in 1987. (2)

It must be universally equal.  Neither angel nor human nor any other form.  The Divine Mother tells us what it is: What is birthed is “the essence of One.”

See the position we’re left in because we have no one universal glossary that says all these things are the same?  We’re left to guess at what the meaning may be.

My best guess is that “the essence of One” is the soul, the Self, the Christ, the Atman. Our original face, our buddha nature, the Son of God.

There cannot be many candidates at that level of existence. It’s not as if we’re going to stumble on a new candidate. But the Mother has confirmed it and its her confirmation that really is the priceless gem for me as the cross-cultural student.


Have we not got enough statements about “the essence of the One” to fill a book?  (3) My favorite is from John Ruusbroec, who calls it the Christ, the Son of God:

“In the abyss of this darkness in which the loving spirit has died to itself, God’s revelation and eternal life have their origin, for in this darkness an incomprehensible light is born and shines forth; this is the Son of God, in whom a person becomes able to see and to contemplate eternal life.” (4)

“It is Christ, the light of truth, who says, ‘See,’ and it is through him that we are able to see, for he is the light of the Father, without which there is no light in heaven or on earth.” (5)

Call it the Christ, the Atman, or the Self, this divine spark, it turns out, is the missing link between angel and formless Father. The Mother verifies it.

We can take what she says and provide the rest:

The One ——-> The essence of One ——-> The Angels ——-> Us.

So the soul is birthed and assumes angelic form and then assumes human form and here we all are.

That’s how we got here. How are we getting back?

(Concluded in Part 2, tomorrow.)


(1) “The Divine Mother: My Tsunami of Love Will Shift You Permanently.”), channeled by Linda Dillon, January 30, 2014, at http://goldenageofgaia.com/2014/02/the-divine-mother-my-tsunami-of-love-will-shift-you-permanently/.

(2) For an account of that vision, see “Ch. 13 Epilog” at http://goldenageofgaia.com/spiritual-essays/16244-2/the-purpose-of-life-is-enlightenment/ch-13-epilogue/.

(3) Several books, probably: See http://goldengaiadb.com/index.php?title=S#The_Self.2FThe_Atman and following and http://goldengaiadb.com/index.php?title=The_Nature_of_Life_1#The_Nature_of_the_Soul_or_Self  and following.  Then consult all the sources here, all of which discuss “the essence of the One,” under one name or another: http://goldengaiadb.com/index.php?title=FDL_Bibliography

(4) John Ruusbroec in James A. Wiseman, John Ruusbroec. The Spiritual Espousals and Other Works. New York, etc.: Paulist Press, 1985, 147.

(5) Ibid., 74. I could write a book on these two quotes.


Art: Susan Seddon Boulet



Realizing Our Sacred Purpose – Part 2/2 – Steve Beckow @ Golden Age of Gaia

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Realizing Our Sacred Purpose – Part 2/2

(Concluded from Part 1, yesterday.)

I’d advise anyone who realizes their sacred purpose not to share it with anyone but their loved ones. It’s too sacred to expose to ridicule.

In my case, I’m here as a communicator. I take risks that you probably shouldn’t.

There are things I’ve been asked not to do. I’m not to open a Treasury Direct Account (TDA), as many people are. That’s their mission and not mine.

I’m to fly under the radar as much as possible.

I’m not to get down into the trenches and duke it out with other commentators. There are others for whom it’s their soul contract. It isn’t mine.

So I talk about my sacred purpose because talking about these things is what I do for a living. Michael described my communication role here:

“There is much to be said for everyman, and that is part of the role you play. Yes, you are a pillar. You are an anchor. You’re an informant but you’re also playing the role of everyman – with curiosity, with exploration, with insight. So our desire is not to separate you from the collective. Let go of that fear.” (1)

As part of the role of communicator – a role which I don’t need to realize; it’s in my blood – I accept the risk of ridicule.

The role of pillar is allowing others to go ahead of you.  Michael described what being a pillar entailed, in this remarkable conversation from the 1200 pages of transcripts from our private readings:

Archangel Michael: Let us also say that your trips through the Ascension portal have not completely ceased and you are doing a great deal of this work during, what you think of as, your sleeping time.

Your primary role, and that is why I have begun with this soliloquy this day, is that you are truly acting as a pillar. So what you have done is basically moved from the front of the line to the back of the line and you are very gently, and sometimes not so gently, nudging people along.

Of course that is the role of the pillar. Think of it in some ways, and I do not mean to say that the Ascension doorway is closing, but think of it as if there are palace doors that are thousands of tons and very thick and they are beginning to close and you, my dear, are like those palace doors.

As they are very slowly swinging, you are nudging, nudging, nudging, making sure that everyone is within the sacred space, within the safety of their own sphere and helping them along, nudging them along. That is basically what you have been doing.

You have been introducing – not to you but to many – new concepts, [including] what we would call a different form of language, a different form of communication. It is all Saedor. (2)

Once I get that I’m here till the end, there’s no more wavering and waffling. I settle in.

This is me doing my job now, but I get it at a whole new level.

The impact on me has been transformative.  Many things now start to fall into place.

Michael once joked with me: “I’m not going anywhere,” meaning himself, “and you’re certainly not going anywhere.”

Now I get it.


Werner Erhard used to say the truth is what’s so. It’s also so what?

So what? In answer to the readers I was talking to in my mind, I’m here for the long haul. I’m not going to complain. That’s someone else’s role. Some very good complainers have become President of the United States. Recently.

I was one myself. But, knowing what I know, I now feel drawn to the non-complainers – Winston Churchill, Abraham Lincoln, Jesus.

My perspective is altering. My sense of time is expanding.

If I’m here for the long haul, I want to install myself, rearrange the furniture.

“We will defend our island, whatever the cost. Mr. Hitler knows that he must defeat us or lose the war.”

“Four score and seven years ago our fathers brought forth on this continent a new nation.”


I’m crying. I feel as if I had amnesia and I’m now waking up.

No more hiding for me, not once one has realized their sacred purpose. However, no more hiding carries no more constraint with it than that. I’m not bound to any path or plan or action, save the Mother’s and my own.

I’m sharing this with you because what is unfolding for me is equally there for you. We’re all angels, dear hearts. If some of that starts to peep through, I don’t think we should be surprised.

I need to know more about the universal laws. Enough dallying. Back to work.


(1) Archangel Michael in a personal reading with Steve Beckow through Linda Dillon, Nov. 11, 2015.

(2) Loc. cit. Saedor is loving or heart-centered communication.


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Realizing Our Sacred Purpose – Part 1/2 – Steve Beckow @ Golden Age of Gaia

Nepali Princess Bhrikuti


Realizing Our Sacred Purpose – Part 1/2

I just had an experience which validates the Universal Law of Sacred Purpose and the value of studying the laws.

I have to say as prelude that Kathleen has been helping people find their sacred purpose and is much of the inspiration behind me studying universal law.

Meanwhile, I’m working on a book on the laws and just yesterday was editing the message from Sanat Kumara on the Law of Sacred Purpose.

As a direct application of that law, this morning, I realized my own sacred purpose. And the result is in fact transformative (I’m in the midst of that realization now).

I was looking out the window this morning. I’d gone to bed early and was up early.

In my mind I was talking to readers who had written in and were tired of waiting.  And I felt the tug of entrainment.

Why should I hold on? I’m tired as well. I haven’t had time off in years. Why not just let go of all this?

Move back to the Downtown Eastside, where rents are cheap. Retire again.

And suddenly, in the midst of this imaginary conversation with the readers, I found myself saying, “I can’t go. I’m a pillar.” I will go down with the ship.

And immediately … it would have been as if an earthquake happened under my feet. Rumble. And something in my life that had been unsettled – probably, what is my role in things? – became settled.

I’m a pillar. I’m here till the end, to close the door and turn out the lights. I’ve known that for years. In part 2, I’ll give you some of the evidence from Archangel Michael, but I’ve known it intellectually. And now I realized it.

The whole question of what am I doing here? has now been settled.

What does it feel like to find one’s sacred purpose?  Well, I’ve gone through several stages of recovery from childhood disassociation and each stage is accompanied by a sense of emerging into greater clarity.

The difference would be similar to being underwater and then being on dry land again. I see more, hear more, and can endure more on dry land.

I feel settled in a way I never have before.


At Cold Mountain, we’d say “I just arrived.” And in a way, yes, I have.

I’ve just arrived in my life. I now know what I’m doing here. I was told before, not saying I wasn’t. But now I know it as a certain thing.

My experience validates what the law of sacred purpose points to: That we have a sacred purpose in being here and a lot depends on us finding it.

You can see how much has altered in me (whether it lasts or not is another question).

And I did not do anything special to realize it. Except invoke the universal law.

There was nothing fancy or ritualized about the realization itself.  It was as if someone whispered in my inner ear: You’re not going anywhere. You’re a pillar.

I’m living proof of the relevance of the Law of Sacred Purpose in restoring balance. And I’m living proof that finding our sacred purpose can be transformative.

I’m being drawn more and more to the center, to the balance point. (Universal law is about restoring balance.)

Having lost my short-term memory years ago, I now, at this moment, am losing consciousness of the everyday world.

I’m in the moment with it. A sense of a burden has been lifted. I enter a space of increased ease. Wow, some things are incredibly easier in this space that I’m entering. But I’m losing touch with words and with the world. I’ll have to break off.

If I don’t write these things down – being in the moment – I’ll never remember them.

(To be concluded in Part 2, tomorrow.)


Nepali Princess Bhrikuti


Androgyny and Polarity – Steve Beckow @ Golden Age of Gaia

Hummingbird and Forest Spirits by Jennifer Baird


Androgyny and Polarity

Several times in my life I’ve noticed that something is right there in front of me and always has been. I just never noticed it.

That was so with my first experience of bliss. I noticed that bliss had always been there but I had never known it for what it was. The minute I recognized it, it took full possession of me.

Similarly today, I saw that I had a preconception of what androgyny was and that my preconception of it was preventing me from seeing.  It was obscuring more than it was revealing.

I noticed the other day that I enjoy intellectual and experiential explorations alike. And in a flash of recognition I saw that the balance between head and heart was one form androgyny can take.

I realized that had a pre-existing idea of what androgyny was like. If I were androgynous, I should – let’s say – have long flowing hair, be an excellent dancer, and be gentle in mind and words.  My ideas of it were obviously immature and unconscious.

Balancing intellectual and emotional experience is a form of androgyny. I don’t think I can yet say “I’m androgynous.” No. I’m sure I’m not there yet. But I’m taking my first cut at being so, trying the label on for fit.

This form of androgyny looks forward to the balancing of the intellectual with the experiential, the right with the left hemisphere, the mind with the heart.

But there’s a much larger accomplishment beyond that, one into which androgyny fits.

Androgyny is just one form of polarity. There are many others.

We like some things and we don’t like others. We help some people and we don’t help others. We live among some people and we don’t live among others. Etc.

My gut tells me that the place to aim for is balancing all polarities.

We already know how to do that.

We know that cleansing ourselves of our vasanas (core issues) and conditioning removes the charge we have on certain issues. These issues are what create polarities in the first place.

All the hot buttons the normal person has keep us moving on tracks, smiling predictably and losing it predictably. We’re automatons after a while, bent out of shape by our own unfinished business and the behavior patterns that arise from them.

When we actually allow ourselves to re-experience these usually-early-childhood traumas and complete them, the charge on many things leaves us.

Now, we’re not triggered by this remark or upset by that one. When quietude happens, the polarities start to lose steam, collapse like deflated balloons, and lose all relevance and importance.

When all polarities have been calmed and put to rest, well, you know the rest. The mind is still. And in the still pool of the quiet mind, the Self can be seen.

In my case, I hope I’ve quieted the battle between the intellect and the heart. Both are delightful. And they complement each other.

Like so many illusory battles, it isn’t a question of “either/or.” There isn’t a question at all. But if there was, it’d be a question of “and.”

I am intellectual and experiential. I am head and heart. I am masculine and feminine. When the charge is taken off the polarities, balance is achieved and the reach of one’s heart keeps expanding.


Hummingbird and Forest Spirits by Jennifer Baird


St. John of the Cross on the Dark Night of the Soul – Steve Beckow @ Golden Age of Gaia

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St. John of the Cross on the Dark Night of the Soul

Yesterday we looked at recent spiritual teachers on purification.

Today I’d like to look at one particular spiritual teacher who examined purification – or purgation – in minute detail – St. John of the Cross.  He lived in the second half of the sixteenth century.

His three-part description of the “dark night of the soul” describes a rigorous purification, followed by a high level of enlightenment (probably Brahmajnana or God-Realization, seventh-chakra enlightenment).

St. John describes it as if he’s writing a manual for seekers. But he’s actually describing his own experience, as his final statements, below, indicate.

“This purification of the soul,” he says, “we can call the dark night…, whether it is the purification of the sense or of the spirit.” (1)

The “dark night” is actually three separate purgations:

“A soul must ordinarily pass through [three] principal kinds of night (which spiritual persons call purgations or purifications of the soul) in order to reach the state of perfection. Here we shall term these purgations nights, because in [all three] of them the soul journeys in darkness as though by night.” (2)

The first night, or purgation “concerns the sensory part of man’s nature.” (3)

“[The first] dark night is a privation and purgation of all sensible appetites for external things of the world, the delights of the flesh, and the gratifications of the will. All this deprivation is wrought in the purgation of sense. …

“One is not freed from the sufferings and anguish of the appetites until they are tempered and put to sleep. … The first [reason we call this journey toward union with God a night] has to do with the point of departure, because the individual must deprive himself of his appetite for worldly possessions. This denial and privation is like a night for all his senses.” (4)

The second is “the night of the spiritual part of man’s soul,” as he describes for us:

“After passing through the first night (the privation of all sensible objects), a man soon enters the second night by living in faith alone, not a faith that is exclusive of charity, but a faith that excludes other intellectual knowledge. … For faith does not fall into the province of the senses. … God, by means of faith, which is the second night, communicates Himself so secretly and intimately that He becomes another night for the soul.” (5)

The third night is “the passive purgation”:

“While this communication of God is in progress, the night … becomes far darker than those other two nights. When this third night (God’s communication to the spirit, which usually occurs in extreme darkness of soul) has passed, a union with the Spouse, who is the Wisdom of God [the Divine Mother], then follows.” (6)

He continues:

“In actuality these three nights comprise only one night, a night divided into three parts, just as the natural night. The first part, the night of the senses, resembles early evening, that time of twilight when things begin to fade from sight. The second part, faith, is completely dark, like midnight. The third part, representing God, is like the very early dawn just before the break of day.” (7)

And what follows these dark nights of purification for St. John? He calls it “a union with the Spouse, who is the Wisdom of God [the Divine Mother].”

Here’s his account of his enlightenment experience:

“Upon my flowering breast
Which I kept wholly for Him alone,
There He lay sleeping,
And I caressing Him
There in a breeze from the fanning cedars.

“When the breeze blew from the turret
Parting His hair,
He wounded my neck
With His gentle hand,
Suspending all my senses.

“I abandoned and forgot myself,
Laying my face on my Beloved;
All things ceased;
I went out from myself,
Leaving my cares Forgotten among the lilies.” (8)

He exclaims:

“O living flame of love, how tenderly you wound my soul in her profoundest core! You are no longer shy. Do it now, I ask you: break the membrane of our sweet union.

“O sweet cautery! O delightful wound! O gentle hand! O delicate touch That tastes of eternal life, And pays every debt! In killing, You changed death to life.” (9)

I assume that St. John describes a movement from enlightenment in form (“the membrane” preventing union) to enlightenment beyond form (“delightful wound,” breaking through the membrane of form).

He then gives two indications that the experience did not last, meaning it was not Ascension.  The first indication is here, where he says “every time [the flame] flares up.”

“This flame of love is the Spirit of its Bridegroom, which is the Holy Spirit. The soul feels Him within itself not only as a fire which has consumed and transformed it, but as a fire that burns and flares within it…. And that flame, every time it flares up, bathes the soul in glory and refreshes it with the quality of divine life. Such is the activity of the Holy Spirit in the soul transformed in love: the interior acts He produces shoot up flames for they are acts of inflamed love, in which the will of the soul united with that flame, made one with it, loves most sublimely.” (10)

If the flame flares up and subsides, then he has not ascended. If he had, the experience would be continuous and consistent.

The second is here where he talks about “touches of God,” indicating impermanent experiences (again, probably Brahmajnana).

“Such is the sweetness of deep delight of these touches of God that one of them is more than recompense for all the sufferings of this life, however great their number.” (11)

Despite the lack of a glossary hundreds of years ago to assist us to know what’s being discussed, St. John’s descriptions of his process of purgation are suggestive: from detachment from the senses to detachment of the spirit to union with God out of the extreme darkness.

We won’t need to go through such rigorous processes as St. John or others (12) describe.  The energies that we’re bathing in right now are raising our vibrations to a state simply not available to St. John when he pursued his spiritual practices.

Reading the trials and tribulations that they had to pass through might make us grateful for the relatively peaceful and gentle way we’ve been asked to carry out our own ascent.


(1) St. John of the Cross in Kieran Kavanaugh and Otilio Rodriguez, trans. Complete Works of St. John of the Cross.Washington: Institute of Carmelite Studies, 1973, 71-2.

(2) Ibid., 73. St. John actually says “two” rather than “three” but then goes on to describe three phases of the dark night. For ease of discussion at an introductory level, I’ve called them “three.”

(3) Ibid., 73.

(4) Ibid., 74.

(5) Loc. cit.

(6) Loc. cit.

(7) Ibid., 75.

(8) Ibid., 69.

(9) Loc. cit.

(10) Ibid., 580.

(11) St. John of the Cross in Maurice Bucke,Cosmic Consciousness. A Study in the Evolution of the Human Mind. New York: Dutton, 1969; c1901, 149.

(12) St. Germaine left us a record of his rigorous Ascension: The Most Holy Trinosophia by Comte de Saint-Germain [1933] at http://www.sacred-texts.com/eso/mht/index.htm


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The Purification Stage of Ascension – Steve Beckow @ Golden Age of Gaia

Samadhi painting by Pat Cleveland @ Fine Art America


The Purification Stage of Ascension

If we studied under a qualified terrestrial spiritual teacher in a mid-twentieth-century eastern setting, we’d probably hear that purification is an essential stage of spiritual practice aimed at enlightenment.

Here’s a typical statement of the case, from the Upanishads:

“The secret of immortality is to be found in purification of the heart, in meditation, in realization of the identification of the Self within and Brahman without. For immortality is union with God.” (1)

And here’s an adaptation of that same view by a more contemporary teacher, Swami Yatiswarananda:

“Whatever be our spiritual path, Hindu, Buddhist, Christian, or Sufi, the three stages we all have to follow are purification, meditation, and experience of the divine reality or Godhead.” (2)

To Buddhists, these three stages would be called sila, samadhi, and prajna/panna (purification, meditation, and wisdom/realization). But as Swami Yatiswarananda said, it’s to be found in all religions.

If we remember that unveiling the Self is what purification does, then we can see that the only real work we need to do to uncover the Self is to eradicate the overburden of core issues or vasanas that sits on top of and veils the Self, as Ramana Mahaeshi states here:

“Sahaja [the ascended state] is the original state so that sadhana amounts to the removal of obstacles [i.e., vasanas], for the realization of this abiding truth.” (3)

“In Kevalya Nirvikalpa Samadhi [Brahmajnana or God-Realization] one is not free from vasanas and does not, therefore, attain mukti. Only after the samskaras have been destroyed [in Sahaja] can one attain salvation. …

“Even though one practices Kevalya Nirvikalpa Samadhi for years together, if one has not rooted out the vasanas, he will not attain salvation.” (4)

The Mother confirmed with me back on May 7, 2012 that Sahaja Samadhi is the ascended state. (5)  It burns our remaining vasanas to a crisp.

We’re just building momentum for that event, so as to draw in (or enroll) the rest of the planet in our first mass Ascension on Earth.

Everything that’s happening right now – our personal work, financial deconstruction, Earth changes – can be, and is, seen as purification. I’ll be writing more on the subject because working this phase of things seems to me to be very important, now and in the overall scheme of things.

What I hope these further studies will show is that the very same purification or purgation phase we’re passing through now, many, many generations of spiritual seekers and sages had to go through as well in former years. So we’re among good company.

Shedding our heavy baggage, which prevents us from flying free, is now and has always been a necessity of spiritual unfoldment. But never has there been galactic  assistance and never such an energetic outpouring. Consequently, never has it been so easy.


(1) Swami Prabhavananda and Frederick Manchester, trans., The Upanishads. Breath of the Eternal. New York and Scarborough: New American Library, 1957; c1948, 13.

(2) Swami Yatiswarananda in Christopher Isherwood, ed., Vedanta for Modern Man. New York: Collier Books, 1962; c1945, 133-4.

(3) Ramana Maharshi in Paul Brunton and Munagala Venkataramaiah. Conscious Immortality. Conversations with Sri Ramana Maharshi. Rev. ed. 1996, n.p.

We may also need to withdraw from the conditioned behavior that our vasanas tend to create in us over time.

Of Sahaja, Ramana says:

“The Sahaja Nirvikalpa [Samadhi] is permanent and in it lies liberation from rebirths.” (Ramana Maharshi in S.S. Cohen, Guru Ramana. Memories and Notes. 6th edition. Tiruvannamalai: Sri Ramanasramam, 1993, 88.)

We’re “rooting out the vasanas.” And we have been for the past three or four years. This is the purification stage.

(4) Sri Ramana Maharshi in Ramananda Swarnagiri, Crumbs from His Table, at http://www.ramana-maharshi.org. Downloaded 10 September 2005, n.p.)

(5) Steve Beckow: Now, you said that the experience [of Ascension], the enlightenment experience is beyond the 13 chakras, but you didn’t actually say yes or no to my question of whether this experience corresponds to sahaja samadhi.

Divine Mother: Yes.

SB: It does?

DM: That is correct.

SB: Oh, eureka! Thank you, Mother! I’m so happy to have that confirmed. (“The Divine Mother: Come to Me as I Come to You – Part 1/2,” Oct. 17, 2012 through Linda Dillon, at http://goldenageofgaia.com/2012/10/the-divine-mother-come-to-me-as-i-come-to-you-part-12/.)

Samadhi painting by Pat Cleveland @ Fine Art America

Building Slowly and Building Well – Steve Beckow @ Golden Age of Gaia

Quine of White Lotus Painting by Anna Ewa Miarczynska


Building Slowly and Building Well

I’m amazed, when I look back over years, at the transition in my thinking about post-Reval initiatives. Here are two areas they’ve radically changed in.

I’ve moved from planning on many companies being created and funding everything in sight – people and projects – to moving further up the abundance chain and funding far fewer but much larger initiatives.

This makes it possible to conceive of myself participating in humanitarian philanthropy, without losing my ability to write.  The task becomes manageable.

All of this was set in motion by Archangel Michael’s repeated request to restrict myself to five or six people reporting to me.

He made it again in my Aug. 2 reading: “You’re going to have adequate staff to run these projects – you are only to deal with a handful of people.” And later, “yes, still with only handful of people reporting to you.”

Events that I’ve been through since he said that have consistently shown me why this guidance – and others he’s given me – make sense.

In my case, my desire to continue writing is stronger than my desire to play a large role in financial wayshowing.  That is beginning to determine more and more of my involvement.

Here’s a second way I’ve radically changed my viewpoint.

My previous plans involved many companies, all sorts of initiatives, birthing projects right and left. Then I moved further up the abundance chain and that offered me some sense of lightening my load. But now I’m even retreating even from the notion of creating many large companies.

Not that large companies should not exist. But that I would be creating them. I now see I will not.

More generally speaking, Archangel Gabrielle advised us to start small.  I now agree.

I’ve retreated to the opposite end of the spectrum. I presently intend to begin matters with just myself and the President of the Michaelangelo Fund and for us to reach a place of understanding and get our feet wet in the area together first and then to gradually, gradually expand.

I want each piece of the process to be built on the basis of a good and clear understanding between me and the next level down of what it is we’re doing, who it is we’re doing it with, and where it is we’re going before we go on to the next step.

I know I risk looking as if I’m micromanaging. I think everyone will be setting up companies and this may be accepted as simply the way we’re setting up ours. I hope it is. I have no interest in micromanaging anyone; just the opposite.

This new direction is a complete turnaround for me, but given the unconventional nature of my enterprises (that they’re all in service to the Divine Mother and Gaia and that I’m in co-creative partnership with an archangel), I believe it’s vital to ensure that we’re all enrolled in the vision (cooperating with the Company of Heaven to build Nova Earth).  My spiritual beliefs will underpin everything we’ll be doing. (1) I can’t see a way around it.

This represents a turning away from my earlier concept of hiring, hiring, hiring and going to town. I’m now hiring one. And one will hire two. And so on. I’m now going to build slowly and build well.


(1) I’m not saying that others need to think or worship the way I do. They don’t.

I’m simply saying that these companies will be formed in partnership with celestials, serving Mother God.  I don’t want to have to struggle with employees to establish that context for the company.

The vasana at play here is that I’ve been denied two Ph.D. degrees because I went outside the box of empirical materialism – the belief that only what we can see, hear, touch, etc. is real.  Reality, as it turns out, is too big to fit into the empirical-materialist paradigm.


Quine of White Lotus Painting by Anna Ewa Miarczynska


My Life is Mine to Create – Part 2/2 – Steve Beckow @ Golden Age of Gaia

Art Buddha and The Bodhi Tree by Amulya Jayapal – Behance.


My Life is Mine to Create – Part 2/2

(Concluded from Part 1)

Written in the midst of a spiritual experience

Meanwhile, everything we do together as a collective is a carefully-scripted drama, in which we have the right to depart from our agreed-upon lines.

Well, now that I’m free of thinking what I do or do not do matters, the question then becomes: Now what? I’m not going anywhere so what do I want to create with the rest of my life?

Where can I turn for guidance? I’ll turn to the Divine Mother:

“I have chosen and created and birthed you into form. That is the Plan at work and I have done this, we have done this, with that spark of divinity so that you would be divine in form.

“And what that means in very practical terms is the assumption of your divine authority to be in charge of your life, of your thoughts, of your feelings, of your actions, of your behaviors, of your steps, of your environments, all the way out to the edges of the universe, throughout all times and dimensions. …

“If you do not take authority over your existence – think in practical terms, this life – then what happens? You are adrift. You are in fact that row boat in the middle of the ocean being twisted and turned every which way. Divine authority means choosing – yes, with … your divine authority of free will – to direct how, where, when, [and] if you choose to proceed.” (1)

Assuming my divine authority, rather than continuing to respond to my vasanas and conditioning, what do I want to create with my life?

If this were the processing of a core issue, then this would be the moment when the individual, having laid the vasana bare, has the opportunity to rechoose.

Do I want to create a sad tale of … whatever … or a tale that I myself can be proud of?

Do I want to see the tragedy in the world continue or do I want a world that works for everyone?

I’ve seen such a world. When the whole planet is in the higher-dimensional state indicated by phrases like sacred love, divine love, true love, transformative love, then the world will work for everyone.

It’s in our future, no matter what. I certainly choose a world so deeply in sacred love that it effortlessly works for everyone. That’s the world of our dreams.

And we’ll have our first taste of it when the Mother grants us our heart opening.

Somehow I find myself in the driver’s seat in a way I wasn’t before. I’ve moved from acting as the victim of circumstances to acting as a self-commanding individual.

As a result of these two realizations – realizations are the ultimate fruit of the awareness path – I feel inspired and energized. I’m more in my power now than I was. (2)


(1) “Repost: The Divine Mother: Assume Your Divine Authority,” 

(2) These are not major realizations so deep that they bring on enlightenment. These are a minor order of realizations, often called peak experiences, transformational moments, or “Aha’s!”


Art Buddha and The Bodhi Tree by Amulya Jayapal – Behance.


My Life is Mine to Create – Part 1/2 – Steve Beckow @ Golden Age of Gaia


My Life is Mine to Create – Part 1/2

September 24, 2017 By Steve Beckow
Written in the midst of a spiritual experience

I’m in the middle of a realization. If I don’t write it down, no trace of it will remain.

I suddenly felt the onset of a wave of love directed from me to myself. For a moment, I fell in love with myself.

I felt the same divine love for myself that I feel for my sacred partner.

I was delighted with myself. And it didn’t depend on what I did or did not do.

I was aware of myself as a being. And I loved myself. Why have I been holding back?

When I saw that love didn’t depend on what I did or did not do, I had yet another realization.

I saw that nothing depended on what I did or did not do, that everything I did was made up anyways. This whole world is illusion compounded and I’m acting as if anything I do truly matters, when it really doesn’t. Not absolutely.

It probably sounds as if I’m demeaning myself. I’m not. At the absolute level, every trace of an individual “I” dies. At that level, none of this that has gone on will retain its meaning.

It’s a very refined form of play acting we do, with some very real consequences on the level on which events transpire. But at the level where we re-unite with the One? No meaning at all.

In my moment of realization, I saw that my life was a series of actions that I’m carefully making up as I go along, moment by moment. I observed myself making it up.

And then I persuade people to believe about events whatever I want them to.  I sell my story to them. But it’s all made up.

It’s all my interpretation, my version of whatever actually happened. It isn’t the truth.

And invariably I construct my version to favor myself, to give myself the benefit of the (read: every) doubt, etc. It’s very refined but nonetheless it’s all there, just spread out over a little more time.

In this second “Aha!” I saw that the matter goes much deeper than just this one instance in which I observed myself “making it up.”

The self-serving bias is one of the hardest viruses to clean out of ourselves, one of the last to go, I believe. I saw how deep it goes in me. And how subtle it is.

I’ve talked about this for years under the term “the constructed self.” May I digress? I think it’s important. This is me the sociologist.

Almost all of what we say, in my estimation, comes from our constructed self, the character or persona we project and try to sell to the world. Our self-image, with its self-serving interpretations. In lightwork, we call it our “service-to-self” persona. I just happened to find myself staring at mine.

This whole thing I call “my life” is simply something I’m making up, self-servingly, as we go along and have made up throughout time. And none of it matters a damn. Not one damn. Not really.

None of what I do or do not do ultimately matters. When I bend the knee before God and hand him back everything he gave me, including my separate identity, what I said to the car mechanic or stewardess won’t matter.

Ultimately we’re dreaming that we’re acting when the real us – the Self, the Christ, the Atman – is not acting. “I am not the doer.”

(Concluded in Part 2)



Going Where No One Has Gone Before – Steve Beckow @ Golden Age of Gaia

Violet Ray Angel by Kim Wedel @ Devas Unlimited


Going Where No One Has Gone Before

Many people believe the “end times” will see much catastrophe. Many of their fears track back to the Book of Revelation.

The ancient prophecies, evidently, did apply until this planet’s population pulled out of its downward trajectory and re-embraced the Light.

I don’t know when that time was but I’m sure it took a mammoth effort to pull the plane’s nose up before we hit the ocean.

In a future post, I’ll look at what happened to the ancient prophecies and why they no longer apply.

Us lightworkers being here is part of that. The galactics and celestials participating in such large numbers, are another, major part of it.

Look how many times we’ve heard from the Divine Mother? When in human history has that ever happened?

Look at how many spiritual masters are here.

Then look at the significance of the occasion.

This is the first Ascension, if I’m correct, where we retain the physical body.

It’s the first time on Earth, anyways, that people did not have to die to ascend.

It’s the first time for us that Ascension has been a mass phenomenon. In the past people ascended individually.

We’re also going into an entirely-new space. It’s being created for us in “present” time.

We really are going where no one has gone before.

The rules have changed. All the vistas of dimensionality will be open to us. That wasn’t the case before now.

Coming at things from the afterlife, one could not have visited higher dimensions previously without help. And then one could only visit for a short while.

The rules of enlightenment seem also to have changed.  For instance, I haven’t been able to find any reference to cosmic consciousness, or sixth-chakra enlightenment, in any of our sources.

If, in our Ascension, we skip that stage, it’ll demonstrate that the administration of enlightenment, which lies in the hands of the archangels (and perhaps angels), is in fact elastic. The rules can change and they have.

That cuts the firm anchor of classical enlightenment theory and sets the boat adrift.

Here’s another twist on things for me personally that demonstrates that the rules can and have changed.

I’ve had numerous truncated experiences, some of which under normal circumstances would have been seventh-chakra enlightenment (Brahmajnana), a half-hour spent in the Seventh Dimension, and a very brief glimpse of a dimension beyond the Twelfth (exaltation).

But in every case, in one way or another, each experience lacked a vital dimension of enlightenment.

The Seventh-Dimensional time spent in my Oversoul lacked bliss. The two times that the kundalini completed its circuit in the seventh chakra, which should have resulted in Brahmajnana, only resulted in me watching the spectacle.

The two experiences lacked a deep, experiential dimension. It may as well have been an Imax spectacular.

Before mine, I’d never heard of truncated experiences. If I hadn’t gone through it myself, I wouldn’t know what anyone was talking about. What’s a truncated experience?

But when an experience of mine has been moderated, as Archangel Michael said mine are, the moderation or truncation is quite clear to me.

Michael wants me (read: us) to keep my (read: our) feet on the ground. I can visit the higher states but I can’t say there. He wants me to stay within the focus of my readers.

I imagine much of this is the same for many of you, with variations on a theme. We’re for the greatest part angels, here on a mission. That means that we’re all Transcendental Beings. I’m not sure many people really understand what that means.

Past Twelfth-Dimensional….  Shhhh… It’s a secret.

Don’t tell the terrestrial folks they’re being led by a legion of angels.  (2)


(1) The awareness path focuses on what we’re experiencing right now. You can see it in my writing.

(2) “You are angels in form dancing upon a planet which is an archangel.” (“Video and Transcript ~ Archangel Gabrielle: Cooperation Comes Before Love,” April 11, 2017, at http://goldenageofgaia.com/2017/04/11/video-and-transcript-archangel-gabrielle-cooperation-comes-before-love/.)

“When you are not in form, sometimes you’re angelic; sometimes you are archangelic, seraphim, cherubim, ascended ones, enlightened beings, sheer energies, star beings. …

“So many of you say to me, ‘Well, Michael, Me-Kai-El! You’ve got it wrong. Get your legion and get down here because all I am seeing is hatred and greed and anger and fear and envy and chaos.’

“My beloveds, as your brother of peace, I gladly, joyously bring my legions. But do not forget you are part of that legion. And those of you who are not, are of the legion of Gabrielle, or Jophiel, or Raphael. All of you have multiple faces, multiple existences. But you are anchored in where you are by choice, by free will in service to the Mother.” (“Transcript: Archangel Michael Returns to AHWAA: What’s It Like to be an Archangel? March 17, 2016,” at http://goldenageofgaia.com/2016/03/27/transcript-archangel-michael-returns-ahwaa-whats-like-archangel-march-17-2016/.)

“Let me also step forward and remind each of you of your angelic heritage, of that seed of the angelic that rests within, around, each of you.

“For you have many faces. You have many aspects. You have had many realms and experiences of existence. And for most of you ― no, not all, but for most of you ― you have had existence as angelic of one kind or another. And you carry within thee this essence to this day.

“Now, why do I bring this forward as we begin yet again this conversation on the principalities, thrones, dominions and so on? Because it is important that you also realize that we do not merely speak about the bureaucracy of heaven, or the Company of Heaven. We speak about you, about who you are, and about this energy, this essence, this spark of light that took this form of angelic being once upon a time. And I would urge each of you to acknowledge, to embrace, and to dig and to bring forth your angelic self.” (“Archangel Michael: You are God Having an Experience of You,” June 27, 2014, athttp://goldenageofgaia.com/2014/06/27/archangel-michael-you-are-god-having-an-experience-of-you/.)


Violet Ray Angel by Kim Wedel @ Devas Unlimited


The Divine Mother: After the Reval, Go Where Your Heart Dictates – Steve Beckow @ Golden Age of Gaia


The Divine Mother: After the Reval, Go Where Your Heart Dictates
September 23, 2017 By Steve Beckow

Back in 2014, I had the most extraordinary conversation with the Divine Mother, (1) thanks to Linda. I just came across it today, in the course of editing a book on the Mother.

On An Hour with an Angel, I asked her for a charter for lightworkers who are participating in the Reval. I intend to commit her response to memory.

From “Hour with an Angel: The Divine Mother: The Table is Set; You are Ready for the Dance,” through Linda Dillon, Sept. 18, 2014 at http://goldenageofgaia.com/2014/09/20/the-divine-mother-the-table-is-set-you-are-ready-for-the-dance/

Steve Beckow: You talked about how we lightworkers are building Nova Earth and we’re creating the new environment.

We’re soon, we hope, going to be gifted by the Reval with significant abundance and many lightworkers have taken the opportunity to buy Zimbabwean dollars or Vietnamese dong. And they will then be using a part of that to create Nova Earth.

Can you give us a charter please of what you would like to see us do with that part of the money that’s going to go to that, in the five minutes that remain?

Divine Mother: First you take care of yourself and your family. You know that already from my beloved Michael.

SB: Yes.

DM: There is a term that I use frequently with all of you, and it is gentle and it is grace.

So when I say, “Take care of those around you, those within your community” — and yes, I do mean your lightworker community — who are in need, and then take care of what your heart dictates, there are some of you who immediately migrate to taking care of humans, and there are some of you that immediately migrate to taking care of the land, of the oceans, of the seas, of restoring Gaia.

There are some of you that are moved to reinstate systems, institutions, cultures that support ethical behavior. So do that, because it is always in alignment with your mission and purpose.

There are some of you who are moved to take care of the barking animals because they are hungry.

Now, in the new world, many species that have been extinct will return. Your cities will become places of fresh air and play and gardens. And so some of you will wish to take care of that and be part of that creation.

So go where your heart pulls you.

Many of you have come to work with your star brothers and sisters, because, do not forget, we know the attention in the moment is on the Ascension and the completion of this wondrous, wondrous anchoring of love.

But the next phase, dear heart, is the ripple effect out into my universes. So many of you will be focused on working with your star brothers and sisters and the next Ascension.

Go with my love. Farewell.

The next Ascension is apparently happening in around 200 years and will have an impact throughout the universe, according to Archangel Michael. (2)

I take her words as the Divine Mother’s express statement of what she looks to me for: A graceful and gentle expansion of generosity, radiating outwards, always built on the stable platform of seeing to those around me (service to others).

What she recommended was take care of:

(1) Yourself and your family.

(2) Those around you.

(3) Your lightworker community.

(4) What your heart dictates.

From the center outwards. From my heart to the world. From home to the outside. From the local to the global. Start small, as Archangel Gabrielle once said, and expand outwards.

And to follow our hearts in that. That’s what we all want to do anyways, isn’t it? If it doesn’t bring us joy, don’t do it, right?

But to hear it from the Divine Person who birthed the universe – and all of us – is endlessly comforting.

If we all observed that one guideline – to follow our hearts, to follow our bliss, in our financial wayshowing and everything else – in my opinion, the world would work. (3)


(1) The Divine Mother is called by many names – Shakti, Kali, the Holy Spirit, the Word of God, Aum, the voice crying in the wilderness, etc.

The Divine Mother apparently incarnated as Mary, the Mother of Jesus; hence Linda’s name for her, “the Universal Mother Mary.” All of these names point to the same One, sometimes called Mother/Father God.

(2) Apparently many worlds will be ascending in 200 plus years, based on what Archangel Michael has said to me:

Steve Beckow: The next assignment is in the Seventh Dimension?

Archangel Michael: You will have a choice of planetary systems and this is just the warm-up for [that] Ascension. [That Ascension] is to bring a further rising of vibrations to those throughout the Universe. (Personal Reading with Archangel Michael and Steve Beckow, Sept. 16, 2011.)

Archangel Michael: As I have said to you, when you complete this mission, you are allowed to have 200 years off. But what you do with that is up to you, dear one! (Personal Reading with Archangel Michael and Steve Beckow through Linda Dillon, Dec. 18, 2012.)

(3) Now add to that what she said in 2017:

“Build what is divinely beautiful. I give you my divine authority to do so. I will guide you. I will help you. But I entrust this to you as well. …

“We are helping you. That gateway is open and you are being flooded and you are being assisted and you will be assisted every step of the way.” (“Transcript ~ The Divine Mother: Take Up Your Divine Authority, AHWAA, February 23, 2017,” February 28, 2017, through Linda Dillon, at http://goldenageofgaia.com/2017/02/28/transcript-divine-mother-take-divine-authority-ahwaa-february-23-2017/)

Priceless guidance, from my point of view.

You will find readings on the Reval itself and post-Reval subjects here: http://goldenageofgaia.com/financial-wayshowing-reval/

GAoG will not be answering financial questions after the Reval. No one here has the expertise to do so. We will however highlight other blogs whose mission includes that and post general, philosophical discussions of financial wayshowing and stewardship.

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Interdimensional Tourists and Our I Am Presence – Part 2/2 – Steve Beckow @ Golden Age of Gaia

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Interdimensional Tourists and Our I Am Presence – Part 2/2

(Concluded from Part 1, yesterday.)

I haven’t had the breakthrough yet in the realization of the relationship among the Natural Self, Higher Self, Oversoul, and I Am Presence.

Our I Am Presence speaks to us through our hearts, Archangel Metatron tells us: “Your heart is your Soul, your Higher Self, your Great I AM Presence, speaking to you.” (1)

Archangel Gabrielle agrees with Metatron. If we listen to our heart, she says, we hear and connect with our I Am Presence.

“Through the power of the heart, your Soul’s voice will be heard in a new way. Your personal connection to your I AM Presence will be more available to you than ever before. (2)

The Light Collective testified that it’s “through the pineal gland you can make connection with your soul and I AM Presence.” (3)

It’s almost as if the pineal gland is where we extend our hand to our I Am Presence and the heart is where our I Am Presence extends its hand to us – and makes its presence known.

Apparently, Archangel Michael tells us, we also have a “Light Pathway [which] extends from your Crown Chakra to your Divine I AM Presence/God Self.” (4)

At the top, I’ve attached a picture from Elizabeth Clare Prophet of the person and what I assume is either their Higher Self or their I Am Presence, connected by this Light Pathway. The picture was well known in the Seventies.

According to Patricia Diane Cota-Robles, we were only permitted to know about the existence of our I Am Presence in 1930:

“In 1930 a Divine dispensation was granted, which was the first time since the final sinking of Atlantis that the knowledge of the individual I Am Presence was given to humanity; and the transforming energies of the Violet Flame were accelerated in preparation for the forthcoming ascension process of humanity and the Earth.” (5)

I should end here and pick up in a separate article. I apologize if this has been long or dense.

I have no direct knowledge of my I Am Presence in this lifetime. I’m quite sure we’ll all experience it at an unknown time in the future. By then, we’ll all  be interdimensional tourists.


(1) Metatron, “So Excitingly Close,” Aug. 30, 2009, through Marlene Swetlishoff, on Share11, http://groups.yahoo.com/group/Share11/message/6830.

(2) “Archangel Gabriel: Opening the Stargate of the Heart,” channeled by Shanta Gabriel, June 5, 2014, at http://www.thegabrielmessages.com.

(3) “A Message from the Light Collective,” channeled by Tazjima, August 10, 2013 at http://bluedragonjournal.com.

(4) “Archangel Michael: Love is a Natural State of Being, channelled through Ronna Herman, September 29, 2013, at http://www.ronnastar.com/messages-aam/latest.html.

(5) Archangel Michael, “Passport to Ascension,” May 2009, through Ronna Herman, ibid.

Interdimensional Tourists and Our I Am Presence – Part 1/2 – Steve Beckow @ Golden Age of Gaia


Interdimensional Tourists and Our I Am Presence – Part 1/2


Written before posting Patricia Diane Cota Robles’s Ascension narrative.

“The truth of who I am [is the] I AM Presence,” Archangel Uriel told us in 2017. (1) But what is the “I am Presence”?

So far I haven’t seen a really definitive discussion of it. I haven’t known what to make of the phrase until very recently.

Most sources simply refer to it or relate one fact about it.  So all we can offer is the few facts we have – in this and one or two future articles on the subject.

Archangel Michael explains that “your own conscious I AM Presence [is] an individualized facet of the Creator.” (2)

If it’s an individualized facet of the Creator, then it must be part of the illusion. The Creator is indivisible, One without a second. Where it fits in in the map of the heavens is unknown to me, but there are levels beyond it.

Even our Self, Christ, or Atman is illusory. There’s a wonderful Biblical passage about Christ bending the knee to the Father and handing back to him everything that was ever given to him (including individuation), that the One might become All in all.

That describes the extinction of the last vestiges of individuation and ultimate ascension as the One. Only the One is beyond illusion.


Is the I Am Presence another way of saying the Self? I don’t think so.

Michael told me once that the watcher is the Self, or Christ or Atman. Here he is:

Steve: Always there is something that is aware, always, always aware, something that never ceases to be aware. That aware part of me focuses on the mind, or focuses on me, or the higher self… What IS that part of me?? Is it the Atman?

Archangel Michael: It is your very soul

SB: Now is that the Atman or beyond the Atman?

AAM: No, it is your Atman.

SB: That is a question I have had for decades! Thank you for settling that for me. (3)

The I Am Presence is represented as being on a loftier dimension than my everyday consciousness, higher than the Higher Self.

It’s represented as being somehow separate from me until we “conjoin.”  It remains a mystery to me.

Archangel Gabrielle tells us that “your I AM Presence [is] the greater eternal part of you that illuminates your Soul’s journey through life.” (4)

The soul, the watcher – the Self/Christ/Atman – is always right here, right now, looking out from these eyes. I’ve had numerous minor experiences of it – glimpses is the best word.

The I Am Presence is depicted as being outside of me but I know the soul, which is more refined than the I Am Presence, as being “inside” of me.

This is a paradox. It results in cognitive dissonance and, if left alone to work itself out, can result in a paradigmatic breakthrough. How can my I Am Presence be outside of me when I know my soul is inside?

Cognitive dissonance can lead to realization.

(Continued in Part 2, tomorrow.)


(1) “Transcript ~ Archangel Uriel On Divine Authority, May 16, 2017,” Channeled by Linda Dillon, at http://goldenageofgaia.com/2017/05/21/transcript-archangel-uriel-on-divine-authority-heavenly-blessings-may-16-2017/.

(2) Archangel Michael through Ronna Herman, Feb. 27, 2011, at http://www.AskArchangelMichael.com.

(3) Archangel Michael in a personal reading with Steve Beckow through Linda Dillon, Jan. 23, 2015.

(4) “Archangel Gabriel: The Cosmic Escalator Carrying You Through April,” channeled by Shanta Gabriel, April 1, 2014 at http://www.thegabrielmessages.com.




What Ascended Masters Have Taken Form? – Steve Beckow @ Golden Age of Gaia


What Ascended Masters Have Taken Form?

What ascended masters have taken form?

In 2013 I asked the question of Sanat Kumara and received a list of the ascended masters known to us. Quite frankly I was delighted to get such a detailed listing.

Here it is. There were some surprises for me.

From “Sanat Kumara: Many of You Have Already Ascended and Straddle Dimensions,” May 28, 2013, athttp://goldenageofgaia.com/2013/05/28/sanat-kumara-many-of-you-have-already-ascended-and-straddle-dimensions/.)

Steve Beckow: Could you tell us in more detail who the people are who have come to participate in form in this Ascension effort, please?

Sanat Kumara: Now, also understand, as I say some of these names, there are those who choose not to be known, and that sometimes it is not an aspect [of their being that incarnates], but an expression of their being.

All of the Apostles as you have known them are already on the planet, (1) as are most of the disciples that have walked with Yeshua, including his family — no, excluding the mother [of Jesus], of course, (2) and excluding Jophiel.

Saul/Paul, Mohammed — in aspect or expression; Moses, Abraham, most of the old prophets, as you have known them; many of the what you would think of as the eastern beings — Djwhal Khul, St. Germaine pops in and out as aspect; Kuthumi, Maitreya — in and out, not fully anchored as yet. There is a new Buddha already born [Ranjit], and already in practice, in place. (3) The Blue Tara, Green Tara. An aspect or an expression of Quan Yin. So they are already present upon the planet.

The news that Moses and Abraham have reincarnated excited me. I find it interesting that Saul/Paul should be here in aspect, even as he continues to speak through John Smallman.

Archangel Michael explains in more detail that Mohammed appears to people, rather than has taken a human body:

“The prophet Mohammed is the prophet of peace and too many, in all cultures, have forgotten this.

“Mohammed has been speaking, what you would call and just have called, the inner chamber but he has been speaking in the ears, in the head and in the heart of those involved in this violence.

“And there are several, not many, but several in leadership that Mohammed has over-lit and spoken to in what you would call an apparition.” (4)

And then of course there’s us.

Any glimpse I’ve had suggests to me that we’ll all be bowled over when we realize who we are on the higher dimensions. When I gazed on my Higher Self, though only briefly, I was astonished and amazed.  So will you be.


(1) I know two personally.

(2) Excluding the mother of Jesus because that was a direct incarnation of the Divine Mother and she doesn’t choose to incarnate at this time. The Mother declares it here: “I have incarnated at one time, as you know as the mother [of Jesus].” (“The Divine Mother: We are Creating a New Species of Humans,” July 12, 2014, at http://goldenageofgaia.com/2014/07/12/the-divine-mother-we-are-creating-a-new-species-of-humans/.)

(3) See “The New Buddha: The Masters are Arriving Daily,” July 1, 2013, at http://goldenageofgaia.com/2013/07/01/the-new-buddha-the-masters-are-arriving-daily/

(4) An Hour with an Angel with Archangel Michael, Feb. 14, 2015, Part 1/2 Channeled by Linda Dillon, https://goldenageofgaia.com/2015/02/15/transcript-archangel-michael-peace-upon-earth-answer-yes/   



Abundant and Secure, Sunny and Confident – Steve Beckow @ Golden Age of Gaia

Art: Oracle of Self by Jennifer Michelle Long @ Fine Art America


 Abundant and Secure, Sunny and Confident

The work that unfolded as a result of making a list of conclusions and decisions (1) at Kathleen’s suggestion has not stopped since then.


A major realization came today, when I was lying down, meditating. It set the stage for a second.

I realized I had become my Dad at a deeper level than I’d gotten so far.

Some time ago, I’d realized certain things about me and Dad. I knew in some way I’d become him, but I didn’t yet know exactly what that way was or how it had come about.

But because of the list Kathleen had me make, I saw the way: I had my Dad’s attitude to life. The similarity is that I became my Dad attitudinally.

Many of the basic statements on the list track back to Dad’s attitude: You can’t trust anyone; always keep your guard up; etc. The scared-wolf look that I was said to have suggests to me that I adopted his orientation to life. (I was also to find out later than many track back to being tied up in the crib so that I wouldn’t scratch my arms – excema.)

When I got this, I could just be with it, at last, and experience what arose through to completion. I was no longer resisting it and thereby dancing with it forever.

Then I invoked the Law of Elimination to take away all the sentences on that list of conclusions and decisions, to erase the whole shooting match from my mind.


The second major realization started shortly after. It unfolded much like my experience of peace and the Natural Self.  (2) I saw a scene in my mind. Usually I see a scene and hardly pay attention to it. And it remains in the background of awareness.

But I focused on this one, just as I focused on the peaceful face earlier. (3)

It was of me as a ten-year-old boy in Montreal for the summer, at my grandfather’s country house. (4) He was wealthy and I felt secure and abundant knowing he was my granddad. Little did I know.

My grandfather was rich.  I assumed he cared about us. Surely we could call on him at any time if we were in trouble.

But he never shared his wealth. And he used it to attempt to manipulate my parents. He got away with it with my Dad but my Mom would not give in. Dad became violent towards her and their marriage fell apart.

I can gain a bit of distance from it now, after all these years. It was most unfortunate.

Returning to the Montreal summer scene I was looking at, how I felt that summer at my Grandfather’s “chateau,” was the best I felt in my life. These were my salad days.

Abundant and secure, dazzled by the evidence of Grandfather’s wealth, I could get on with my life now, without always worrying.

Me and my brother only did little things that summer like walking to the village or catching frogs and then letting them loose. It was the way I felt that was so important. (5)

And here I was, in the present moment, reliving the experience  again. It felt as wonderful in the reliving as it did in the living. I allowed myself to spend some time in that space. Actually, I’m still in it.

Then I invoked Archangel Michael and the Divine Mother and everyone else I could think of and the Law of Elimination to take away from me all the memories that remove me from this space.

I wanted everything more recent than the summer in Montreal (1956), to do with my patrilineal line, erased from my memory bank.  Go with my blessings. It was a trip and I’m detaching from you now.

I get that you all were only doing your best with what you had to work with. But we all screwed up and I need a fresh start. I need to reboot. And shed defective programming and broken links.

I asked Michael to permit me to remain in the space of that summer in Montreal. I can bring the space back, I think, by remembering how those days were and letting go of the rest.

Like the “System Restore” I had a year ago, (6) I’ve again found a time before all the fighting began and I’m laying claim to that space. I want my innocence back. I want my happiness again.

I feel a return of feelings that, since that time, I never even remembered I had. I feel abundant and secure, sunny and confident.


(1) “I Robot,” Sept. 13, 2017, at http://goldenageofgaia.com/?p=289685

(2) See “The Peace that Passeth Understanding,” July 18, 2017, at http://goldenageofgaia.com/2017/07/18/the-peace-that-passeth-understanding/

For an earlier experience see “Deep Experience of Peace,” March 5, 2016, at http://goldenageofgaia.com/2016/03/05/deep-experience-of-peace/

(3) In “The Peace That Passeth Understanding,” ibid.

(4) After that my family started fighting. I believe  in other articles I said the fighting started at my age seven. But from reconstructing events by linking it to cars that we had (we drove to Montreal in a 1956 Chevrolet), I now see that it started at my age ten.

(5) “System Restore,” May 6, 2016, at http://goldenageofgaia.com/2016/05/06/system-restore-2/

I also noticed that the affirmations in “I Robot” are now easy to say. They now accord with my inner experience whereas before saying them was a merely intellectual exercise.


Art: Oracle of Self by Jennifer Michelle Long @ Fine Art America



A Vasana Rooted in Past-Life Memory – Steve Beckow @ Golden Age of Gaia

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A Vasana Rooted in Past-Life Memory

I was on my way to a meeting that was being held in a church.The meeting would involve sharing.

And I realized, as I walked towards the meeting, that I had fears about public speaking in a church.

The matter has never arisen for me in this lifetime.  However, I know that, in a past lifetime in the Middle Ages, I had a quite active relationship with the Church and I have to admit that the mere thought of speaking in one is arousing strong feelings.


I see flashing before my eyes people tortured, in the name of religion. I sense politics and intrigues and power plays, all in the name of religion. I see people assassinated and wars being fought, all in the name of religion.

Yes, this is a vasana. But curiously enough, it seems to be a past-life vasana. Archangel Michael told us last year these would start occurring.

“In terms of these past life memories, you are being reminded of what is important for you.

“So many of you will have these flashes of memory and that is because it is to assist you. So do not stay stuck in that one memory. Look at it. Enjoy it. Incorporate it. Simply knowing that you are being given – not just the information but the knowing that is going to serve you as you progress in your own progression and becoming, in your journey back to the One – but also in the anchoring and the co-creation with us, in partnership, of this Nova Earth, what we will call a system.” (1)

In my case, the memory is traumatic. Probably nothing will serve me as well as releasing it. But it does remind me of what’s important, in Ascension and the overall journey.

My heavens, the next lifetime after the one bleeding through I was instrumental, not in the invention of the printing press, but in making it into a printing technology and enterprise. And the first thing we printed was the Bible, getting it out to the masses for their own study.

And now this lifetime.

I feel tremendous revulsion at the mere thought of being in a church. I’ve never felt this way before in this life.

Also, I’m almost falling over with lethargy and fatigue. Our density today is nothing compared to the density in the Middle Ages.

I have to say that the anchoring of this memory in a past life is unmistakeable. Even though I can’t bring back the details, nor do I necessarily want to, still I’m alive to the feeling of fear as if it were today. It’s very present for me.

I can just switch over into the upset clearing process and clear this. I can invoke the universal laws of change, transmutation, and elimination and eliminate it. I’m not worried.

But this must be the very first time I’ve encountered a vasana rooted in a vivid past-life memory.


(1) “Transcript ~ Archangel Michael: I Come to Touch Your Hearts, AHWAA, October 20, 2016,” at http://goldenageofgaia.com/2016/11/02/archangel-michael-come-touch-hearts/


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I Robot – Steve Beckow @ Golden Age of Gaia

Fantasy Art via Pinterest – Gratitude to unknown artist


I Robot


Kathleen has been assisting me to identify some of the conclusions and decisions that arise from my vasanas (or core issues).

I battle my own vasanas as much as anyone else.

I nearly had a heart attack when I saw how extensive the list was. And my chagrin was multiplied when I realized that this reflects my actual behavior. It isn’t simply theoretical.

I am a robot. My behavior is completely automatic at times. It’s sobering and humbling to realize it.

If I allow the destructive self-messages to remain with me, by staying unaware of them, I’ll become Ebenezer Scrooge. And it’ll take more than the Ghost of Christmas Past to wake me up. It certainly will make this clean-up phase before Ascension a rocky ride.

I see the need to keep waking up and not falling back under the spell of my vasanas.

We know this is the purification phase of Ascension. Certainly for me, everything is coming up, which makes it a wonderful opportunity to process and release it all.

I’m not heard
They don’t care
Life is cruel
Nothing ever lasts
I’m hitting my head against a brick wall
I can’t do this/I can’t make this work
This is a waste of time
I hate being manipulated
I’m not safe
I’m all alone
I don’t deserve love.
I’m not wanted
I’m on my own
I’m glad to be finished with this whole thing
I’m free
This is futile
I’m not interested in money
I don’t know how
You won’t take no for an answer
You have to watch out/keep your guard up
You can’t trust anyone
I will not shut up / remain silent
I will not keep the family secrets
I’m making my own fun
Leave me alone
I’m going to be a monk
I won’t agree to this
I don’t want to be controlled
I can’t make money
I will never fight over money
I don’t want to deal with money
I don’t want to prostitute myself
I won’t sell myself/I won’t be bought
I will not kowtow to rich people
I don’t want to be beholden to people
I won’t ask for money again
I don’t want to come out (of the womb)
Get me outta here
This is going nowhere
I’m out of here/I won’t stay another minute

I also arrived at affirmations to address the false beliefs I generated. I’d like to be able to position them next to the conclusions and decisions, but the page is not wide enough.

The affirmations supply new language, new commands to oneself that point to a more productive and beneficial outcome than anything that resides in my mind at the moment.

Conclusion Affirmations
I am heard
Folks are caring
Life is benevolent to those who are benevolent
The important things last
Nothing is impossible
I can do this/I can make this work
Nothing is a waste of time if done consciously
I am adequate to manage my own affairs
I am safe
I’m watched over by my guardians
I deserve love
I am wanted
I’m joined by others
I send these events on their way with a blessing
I am free
Nothing is futile
I am interested in the good that money can do
I know how
My answer is no
I am safe
I trust people
Decision Affirmations
I am self-expression/ I will speak
I am confidential
I am having fun with people
I am enjoying people
I am enjoying community
I’d choose a different path
I am free
I am worth my hire
I am generous
I am enjoying using money for good purposes
I am an independent person
I am integrity
I am free
I am enjoying whomever I’m with
I ask for what I need
I will come out
I am staying
I am glad we’re discussing things
I am staying


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Shift in Satisfaction from Negative to Positive – Steve Beckow @ Golden Age of Gaia

Art: Dorina Costras


Shift in Satisfaction from Negative to Positive

I’m willing to wager that what we call the Tsunami of Love ancient Christians and Hebrews would have called the fire of the Holy Spirit. (1)

The Tsunami of Love sweeps a person clean of everything that weighs them down. The fire of the Holy Spirit purifies. Both leave the person cleansed and restored.

I think the notions of baptism in the River Jordan, “fuller’s soap” and “refiner’s fire” are also references to this purifying process. (1)

The Divine Mother has promised the world a fourth-chakra heart opening. It’ll see us all experience a torrent of love, which we call a “Tsunami” of love.

Hindus call the experience, “spiritual awakening”; Buddhists, “stream entering.” Timing? The Mother’s.

From my own experience, this tsunami was a flood-tide of divine, real, or true love – Fifth- to Seventh-Dimensional love. It’s so far out of our ordinary experience that words don’t do it justice.

I’ve never been able to find any other words to say than “I love you” while in the experience of it.  I end up endlessly repeating it. We have no other words that convey the pure and simple experience.

I tried so hard some time ago to arrive at some intelligent words about it in articles and had to give the effort up.

I think a contributing factor is that our life here is so dense compared to the higher dimensions that we don’t rise up enough in vibration to feel these states. Our inability to do so is reflected in the words available. Our vocabulary is too limited to convey what these divine states feel like.

Kathleen said the other day that she felt such joy that she could see how the world would work if everyone were feeling the same way. Joy is a divine state.

It’s the same with divine love. If everyone were experiencing it, I guarantee the world would work.  No one would think a harmful thought.  We’d be unable to lift a finger against anyone else or ourselves.


For some people it helps to be in sacred partnership. For others it helps to live alone.  For some divine love arises out of their association with people. For others it happens alone or in nature or among animal friends. Or nature spirits. Or invisible galactics.

Ramakrishna used to say that the Mother makes different dishes from the same fish to suit the tastes of her children. For some she makes fish curry. For others, fish pillau. And for still others, a fish biryani. She makes a dish to suit the palette of each. So our Divine Mother makes a path to suit every inclination. But the destination is the same: Divine love and bliss.

One more? I so love Ramakrishna (who has reincarnated). What matters, he said, was to get into the lake of bliss. You can run in, walk in, jump in, or fall in. It matters not, as long as you get into the lake.

We’re all destined to get into the lake. Some will dip their toes in, some will wade in, and some will run in. But all are destined to fully submerge.


I grew up in the aftermath of World War II in the shadow of the atomic bomb – always worried and fearful – to this day and age when we look forward to a consummation that’s truly beyond words.

The shift in my satisfaction with life has gone from negative to positive. Everything we hoped for in the Sixties is coming true in the Teens. It’s hard to believe all that’s happening, hard to take it all in.

At the same time, “creative chaos” extends to whole cities and regions and descends right down to our own selves, friends, and family.  So many people are hurting. And yet we’re told that this is the last hour before the dawn.

It truly is the darkest hour for many people. Faith and faith alone is what’s buoying them up, who carry a heavy burden.

Soon we’ll help. Everyone hold on.  I believe we’re almost there.


(1) Malachi (3:2).


Art: Dorina Costras


Patricia Diane Cota-Robles: I AM Ascending Into My I AM Presence


Patricia Diane Cota-Robles: I AM Ascending Into My I AM Presence


In all my looking around on the subject of the I Am Presence, I may never find a better experiential and realized account than Patricia Diane Cota-Robles’ 2014 description of her Fifth-Dimensional Ascension.

My eyes were not open the first time I read it because it was published on this site.

She’s had at least the equivalent of Sahaja Samadhi. She’s experienced mukti or liberation from the Third/Fourth Dimension. She’s ascended to the Fifth.

But there are indications that we’re actually listening to a much higher-dimensional master, gradually ascending through the dimensions and blazing the trail. She may simply stop in the Fifth for a while and then show the way to the next dimension.

I say this in the belief that the I Am Presence, which she has fully anchored into, is an Eleventh/Twelfth Dimensional Self. If I err in my belief, I apologize.

But I’m supported in my opinion by the way she speaks. Only a very developed consciousness could, in my opinion, say such things as: “This wondrous Ascension in the Light occurs within me” and “Beloved Father-Mother God—All That Is—I AM.”  

Take your time reading here and imagine the elevated state from which she’s addressing us, whatever it is.

Patricia Cota-Robles: I AM Ascending into My I Am Presence – A Special Solstice Ascension Activation, June 20, 2014, at http://goldenageofgaia.com/2014/06/20/patricia-cota-robles-i-am-ascending-a-special-solstice-ascension-activation/

I AM my I AM Presence and I AM One with the I AM Presence of ALL Humanity. As this wondrous Ascension in the Light occurs within me it occurs through every person on Earth, in perfect alignment with his or her Divine Plan and the highest good for all concerned.

I AM sitting comfortably in my chair with my arms and legs uncrossed and my spine as straight as possible. I breathe in deeply and instantly I AM relaxed and peaceful. I empty my mind of all of the thoughts of the day and I KNOW, “I AM That I AM.” (1)

I gently go within to the Divinity of my Heart and focus my attention on my Immortal Victorious Threefold Flame. Within the full embrace of my Threefold Flame, I realize that I have transcended the old Earth and crossed the threshold into the 5th-Dimensional Crystalline Solar Frequencies of the New Earth. I have truly entered a New Day filled with the full-gathered momentum of Heaven on Earth.

Victory is mine! Victory is mine! Victory is mine!

With this inner knowing, I realize that I have the awesome responsibility of BECOMING the full manifestation of my I AM Presence while I AM embodied on the New Earth. This literally means Transfiguring my physical, etheric, mental, and emotional bodies into the 5th-Dimensional Crystalline Solar Light Bodies of my I AM Presence.

This Divine Alchemy is occurring within me now at an atomic, cellular level. Every electron, every atom, every subatomic particle and wave of my bodies and all the spaces in between the atoms and molecules of my bodies are being filled with multifaceted 5th-Dimensional Crystalline Solar Light.

My I AM Presence is now able to take full dominion of my Earthly Bodies. As this occurs, my thoughts, feelings, words, actions, memories, and beliefs reflect the Transfiguring Divine Love, Infinite Abundance, Eternal Peace, Bliss, Harmony, and Oneness of my Father-Mother God. (2) My physical reality is transformed, and I now experience at every level the infinite physical perfection of the New Earth.

My I AM Presence claims full authority within my Earthly Bodies. I stand forth now as a complete God Being pulsating within the glorious multicolored, multidimensional radiance of my I AM Presence.

My feet are planted firmly on the New Earth, and simultaneously I AM One with all of the Ascended Realms of Infinite Perfection. I AM a God Being of resplendent Light, now realizing the fullness of that Light on every level of my Being. As I AM lifted up, all Life is lifted up with me. Therefore, I know that within my I AM Presence, I AM now ALL of Humanity standing forth and realizing that we are God Beings­—Sons and Daughters of God—on every realm associated with the New Earth.

Within my I AM Presence, I AM the Ascension Flame and I AM the full Divine Momentum of the Twelve Solar Aspects of Deity blazing in, through, and around every particle and wave of Life. I AM liberating every physical and chemical interaction within the Earthly Bodies of ALL Humanity, the Elemental Kingdom, and the physical, etheric, mental, and emotional strata of Mother Earth. The Ascension Flame is raising all of the energy bonds between atoms and within atoms into the 5th-Dimensional Crystalline Solar Frequencies of God’s Infinite Perfection.

I KNOW and ACCEPT that contained within this flowing electronic pattern of Light is everything necessary to Transfigure the entire physical realm into the patterns of perfection for the New Earth. This unfathomable Light contains everything necessary to set straighten the orbit, spin, and electronic charge of every cell, atom, and electron of Life on the old Earth. I feel all energy bonds within the atomic realm now Ascending in vibration toward the frequency of infinite physical perfection. Every cell of Life is now blazing with the full perfection of 5th-Dimensional Crystalline Solar Light.

Within my I AM Presence, I AM the Ascension Flame and the 5th-Dimensional Crystalline Solar Frequencies of the Twelve Solar Aspects of Deity blazing through every interaction within Humanity and all of the energy bonds therein—this includes the relationships of all people, organizations, races, religions, and nations—liberating these interactions into the harmony of a Higher Order of Being, expanding the Sphere of Humanity’s I AM Presence on Earth.

Within the Peace of the Great Solar Quiet, I AM aware of this Higher Reality. I AM now clearly receiving the Divine Promptings, Ideas, and Concepts of my I AM Presence. Daily and hourly, through the Gift of the Ascension Flame, I AM experiencing the Higher Reality of the New Earth within my heart and mind.

I AM now a living, Light-filled Temple of Vibrant Health, Eternal Youth, God’s Infinite Abundance, Peace, Harmony, Balance, Happiness, and Abounding Joy. I AM my 5th-Dimensional Crystalline Solar Light Bodies of I AM Consciousness now made manifest on the New Earth.  And so it is.

I return my consciousness to the room. I become aware of my body, and I allow these Divine Energies to be assimilated into my physical, etheric, mental, and emotional bodies. I breathe deeply and gently as I absorb the bliss of this moment. (pause)

I AM Grateful, I AM Grateful, I AM Eternally Grateful.

Beloved Father-Mother God—All That Is—I AM.

Patricia Cota-Robles, New Age Study of Humanity’s Purpose  a 501 (c) 3 nonprofit educational organization http://www.eraofpeace.org


(1) I AM that I AM.  My own interpretation: “My I AM Presence is One with the I AM Presence.”

(2) Is this not the Tsunami of Love, the torrent of love, this “Transfiguring Divine Love, Infinite Abundance, Eternal Peace, Bliss”? Does it not sweep her clean of all cares and concerns? Only for her it was probably much stronger than the heart opening we’ll have – and permanent.

“My physical reality is transformed.” Interesting….



Transcending the Four Pillars of Belief – Steve Beckow @ Golden Age of Gaia

Artist: Susan Seddon Boulet


I became aware of my Protector/Rescuer script again today, just by watching myself out on a walk.  Triggered by a trivial matter, not worth describing.

But exactly because it was trivial, it left my fear-based reaction standing out like a sore thumb. It “came to my attention” and I “noticed it.”

Any fear-based role like this one inhibits us and makes us dense and un-alive. I was a little dismayed that I still carry the role around. I’ve seen it cause so much havoc for people around me.

My role has me be super-suspicious and super-vigilant. I have to be “on guard.” My wife would remark on my “scared-wolf” look. That was me saying to myself, “You have to watch out. You can’t trust anybody.” All tied up with my Dad (long story, ancient history).

Kathleen would call this broken trust leading to worry. I guess I’m a brilliant example of it.  Violent father breaks trust and I’m forever on my guard, worrying.

OK, that’s where it came from. I got the source of the vasana. But what about the conditioned behavior? What about the behavior pattern that revealed itself?  What is its nature?


Drawing on the awareness path, I looked deeper. What was absolutely basic to this tendency?

Once again I saw the same four pillars of belief that I’ve seen before. They hold up or provide a platform for the entire structure. These four beliefs are not the structure itself; they’re the foundation of the structure, the platform.

And this is something that we as lightworkers may want to look at because we may have to encounter it in ourselves and transcend or eliminate it once we assume leadership positions. Much better before.

The four pillars are a belief in (1) Separation, (2) Self, (3) Scarcity, and (4) Survival.

We think we’re separate from one another. When we’re immersed in sacred love, we see that we’re not. We’re all immersed in the same ocean of love and indeed made of it, I’m told. But “down here” in relative density, that isn’t apparent.

There are no ties that bind here. Our belief in separation from each other sets up all that follows and serves as a foundational belief.  A technological world of laptops and cellphones has contributed, in my view, to a lack of bondedness and connection. It has reinforced our sense of separation.

We also conceive of ourselves as being our small “s” self, our ordinary, everyday consciousness, or “ego,” which has identified it and its interests with our mortal, physical frame. All of that proves untrue when we once leave our bodies. “Oh. I’m not my body,” we find. “I’m something else. Fancy that. What was I afraid of?”

It’s a matter of great relief when people make the transition and simply walk out of their exhausted bodies – alive, aware, happy. Many simply laugh. Few inquire past that into what it is that survives.

We further think that the condition of the world is one of scarcity– scarcity of resources, scarcity of energy, scarcity of money, etc. Our problems in 3D were more to do with distribution and service-to-self than with resources, I think. Scarcity was a result of our beliefs and actions.

By an act of financial sleight of hand, incredible riches are about to be created in our world. That’ll be done with digits, paper currency, and some shiny metal bars.

With this combination of devices, and the public’s agreement, dams will be built, villages will be reclaimed, schools will be constructed. And all that changed began with numbers on a screen.

If that isn’t Abracadabra magic, what is? Why then did we tolerate scarcity and inequity? Why were we getting poorer and poorer when there was so much wealth around?

Taking these three notions as presuppositions, we conclude that what we need to do, under all circumstances, is to ensure our own survival and ensure it first.  We separate selves facing scarcity were physically determined to survive, to look out for Number One. We became in service to self.

All else after that – the self-serving bias, corruption, business Darwinism, elites, cabals, shadow states, suborned officials, economic hitmen, secret societies, secret space fleets – flows out of the system built on those four pillars of belief.


In my view, this is the mindset that we lightworkers will have to break out of if we’re to create a new paradigm for building Nova Earth.

I know I have the old paradigm in me. I observed it go off in me today. Separation/Self/Scarcity/Survival – the four pillars of belief – subtly permeates even the most mundane of my activities.

It shows up like second nature, automatic, conditioned behavior. Hardly noticeable and, if noticed, somehow felt to be natural. It also shows up like fear.

I won’t be able to build a strong foundation on those four pillars. I need to tackle each one and cleanse myself of them by whatever means, preferably before the abundance dam breaks. (1)


(1) By whatever means I can: Invoking the universal laws of change, transmutation and elimination; using St. Germaine’s violet flame or Michael’s blue sword of truth; processing them as vasanas; whatever works.

After the Reval, whatever residue of vasanas and conditioned behavior is left could become magnified.

Resist/resent/revenge could take off. We could still come from separation/self/scarcity/survival and looking out for Number One.

These are entrained behavior patterns that we as societies have. If lightworkers can break free from them, it’ll enter the collective consciousness.


Artist: Susan Seddon Boulet


The Mother Promises a Massive Heart Opening – Part 2/2 – Steve Beckow @ Golden Age of Gaia


The Mother Promises a Massive Heart Opening – Part 2/2


(Concluded from Part 1)

(From The Divine Mother in “Transcript ~ A Mass Heart Opening on This Planet,” Aug. 21, 2017, channeled through Linda Dillon, at http://goldenageofgaia.com/2017/08/21/transcript-a-massive-heart-opening-on-this-planet/.)

Divine Mother: I come this day to say that I am increasing the frequency of my Tsunami of Love. Yes, it has been intense. But this is a period of fulfillment. And, sweet angels of light, fulfillment is intense! Your hearts, your love, your ecstasy, your minds, your physical bodies. You feel – because you are sensitives – that you in many ways are exploding. Do not try. Do not even think or consider tamping it down. …

Go with my love.

Steve Beckow: Mother, wait a minute. Do not depart please, just yet.

DM: All right.

SB: May I please ask you a question?

DM: Yes.

SB: Have you described a heart opening and, if you have described a heart opening, is that what’s in store for us during this time of the Emerald Gateway – specifically the solar eclipse?

DM: You have it backwards, son.

SB: Thank you, Mother. Please correct me.

DM: You all love your signs and you pray and you beg and you plead for signs. And you are most certainly being given tangible signs. Now let me suggest to you, as your Mother, that the solar eclipse, all of these gateways – which I am very fond of, by the way – are reflections. A solar eclipse does not create a heart opening. It is a symbol of the heart opening. So the heart opening is already underway.

So many think of this time of summer as a quiet, lazy, “breathe in, breathe out” time. And you are correct, and because you are doing that we can effect greater change more rapidly. We can ignite not only your heart opening, but your free will – the truth of your free will – which most of you are only exercising in a very small percentage. And those who are creating mayhem, they are not in alignment with Divine Free Will. They are simply nurturing their own petty interests. I speak frankly because it is a time for truth speaking.

So is there a massive heart opening occurring on this planet? And can you point, as you have for millions of years, to the moon and the stars and say, “Now this is a sign”? I say, yes!

SB: But Mother, you use the word exploding. That is why I am commenting. Because, of course, the heart opening that I had March 2015, was explosive. And so…

DM: It is explosive. It is implosive.

SB: Yes. Should I be writing on what to expect? That your heart could feel like it is exploding.

DM: Yes.

SB: Yes. Ok, thank you.

DM: Now let me tell you…you have asked me to remain and so I will say more! (Laughter)

SB: Oh, please. And we will give Michael some time too. [We extended the program.]

DM: That is why I have begun by saying you may feel physically – because this is a physical embodiment ascension – you may feel as if you are exploding. You may wonder, “Should I call 911?” Now if you feel this, then go ahead and do so because it will reassure you that what I say to you – it is going to feel, and some of you are already feeling this – that you can’t contain it. That your very skin is imploding and exploding and that your heart and the conscious knowing of love is so big that you just don’t know what to do with that.

So, this is my guidance. Accept, surrender and breathe. That is what you do with it. And as your body attunes and adjusts, in a full, calm, organized way, jump into action. Do not feel that this is not possible or “I don’t know how this would ever work.” Now will you, in your opinion, make some missteps? But understand, in the new realm, there is no such thing as mistakes. And, understand, there is no guilt, no shame, no blame. Those are what have controlled you for so long. And it is like vapors in the air.

Ask the channel about the scent in the air. The very air of earth is filled with my essence. And you are going forward and I am flooding you. And when I say that I speak on behalf of all – that is all, in my terms. So, will you feel like you are exploding? The answer is yes.

SB: Well, but now you have introduced a second element to it, Mother [the mention of “flooding you”]. And, I have to ask you about that as well. After the explosion I had March 2015 I felt a torrent [flood] of love. It swept away everything. It was your Tsunami of Love, was it not?

DM: Yes.

SB: And, will others be experiencing this torrent of love as well?

DM: Most certainly.

SB: Ok, well, thank you! Oh boy! Then I need to discuss this with readers, because we need to prepare for this, so to speak.

DM: Think of it in this way – and that is why I have begun by my indication that I know that some of you, sweet angels, you are my forward thrust. Yes, you experience forward thrust, but you are my forward thrust. And you have felt, at times, completely disassembled and discombobulated. And at other times you have felt disheartened and you say, “Well, nothing is happening. I might as well just go get a job at the Five and Dime”. Allow yourself to receive. Now, many may feel, in the collective, that they have not welcomed this. And that is why they will turn to you. And they will say many things like, “I feel like I can’t breathe. Maybe this is the end of the world. I don’t know what is happening. I think I am sick.” And you will say no and lovingly support them and share the dream, which is the new reality. This is the time.

Share the good news. That is why I have come – to literally broadcast this to all of Gaia and Gaians. And I tell you, the trees and the stones are listening to me and they know. And, they are ready and they are supporting you. The entire planet, solar system, universe, multiverse is supporting you. You are not alone, in either the literal, practical or esoteric sense. We are with you.


ARTIST APPRECIATION – Gratitude to unknown artist


The Mother Promises a Massive Heart Opening – Part 1/2 – Steve Beckow @ Golden Age of Gaia


The Mother Promises a Massive Heart Opening – Part 1/2

The Divine Mother’s  plan for a “massive heart opening,” that she revealed on An Hour with an Angel on Aug. 17, 2017, (1) is not a trivial event.

She said she wanted the news broadcast far and wide: “Share the good news. That is why I have come – to literally broadcast this to all of Gaia and Gaians.” I promised the Mother that I’d write on it.

It’s the best news to hit this planet since our distant past.

It’s not THE “Event.” There will be a series of events in all fields (ascension, abundance, disclosure, etc.), not simply one.

It must be that way because too much happening in the outside world risks panicking people. And too much happening in the inside world creates anxiety and worry (and visits to doctors, tests, etc.). Ascension is gradual with a few peaks, like this massive heart opening.

There’ll be no hiding the heart opening, especially since it’ll be followed (perhaps not at the same moment, but shortly thereafter) by a torrent of love that’ll sweep us clean.

The transformative love we’ll be left in – the real, true, or divine love – is like a big campfire that everyone loves to gather around.

I’ll post an excerpt from the interview as Part 2 of this article, below. But let me extract from it here.

Here, in the middle of her discussion of how hard conditions are in the world, she announced:

“I come this day to say that I am increasing the frequency of my Tsunami of Love. Yes, it has been intense. But this is a period of fulfillment. And, sweet angels of light, fulfillment is intense! Your hearts, your love, your ecstasy, your minds, your physical bodies. You feel – because you are sensitives – that you in many ways are exploding. Do not try, do not even think or consider tamping it down” (1)

When she used some of these words, my ears pricked up. (She probably used them on purpose.)

“Your hearts … you feel … are exploding.” Yes, that was exactly what happened to me, as I described many times. The energy crept up my leg and when it reached the fourth chakra, my heart (not my heart chakra) exploded.

Well, you can bet your boots I’m waiting to ask her to confirm and expand on what she just said.

But the chance didn’t come! She was saying her farewells and just leaving the matter like that (or she’s pulling my strings backstage or we’re all the Mother anyways)!!!

There followed what was for me a remarkable exchange. You have to realize that, in my mind and heart, I’m talking to the Mother of all Creation.

Steve: Mother, wait a minute. Don’t depart please, just yet.

Divine Mother: All right.

SB: May I please ask you a question?

DM: Yes.

SB: Have you described a heart opening and, if you have described a heart opening, is that what’s in store for us during this time of the Emerald Gateway – specifically the solar eclipse?

DM: You have it backwards, son.

SB: Thank you, Mother. Please correct me.

DM: You all love your signs and you pray and you beg and you plead for signs. And you are most certainly being given tangible signs. Now let me suggest to you, as your Mother, that the solar eclipse, all of these gateways – which I am very fond of, by the way – are reflections. A solar eclipse does not create a heart opening. It is a symbol of the heart opening. So the heart opening is already underway. (2)

So she is describing a heart opening and it’s already underway. The Solar Eclipse was a symbol and reflection of it. But the eclipse did not create it. (3)

She gives us a second confirmation:

“So is there a massive heart opening occurring on this planet? And can you point, as you have for millions of years, to the moon and the stars and say, ‘Now this is a sign’? I say, yes!” (4)

This being the case, I assert that the whole planet is in for a treat such as few people have ever imagined. And to be doing it all together is … well, just what we wanted in 2012. It’s beyond beyond.

The Mother is talking about a life-changing event that I’d want to enter into in a state of surrender and gratitude. It may prove to be a temporary event, whereas the final Ascension event (Sahaja) will be a permanent heart opening. But no one, I predict, will want a refund on that grounds. The experience is ennobling.

For as long as it lasts, we’ll be in a state wherein the world will work for everyone. Anyone in divine love has no ill thoughts or intents. Divine love sweeps them aside. The world will simply, naturally work.

I’m not surprised to see this happening around the same time the Reval is touted as happening (although we’ve endured countless false alarms).

If the whole world were in divine love and lightworkers had access to prosperity, oh my, heavens, righting the balance on Earth would be quick and easy.

Consider yourself put on notice: A Tsunami of Love is coming to the planet, in the face of which your heart will feel like exploding. Mine did.

All it does is remove the obstacle, the mass of beliefs and decisions, from your heart to allow the love to flow freely.

Know that any spiritual experience of this type comes from the Divine Mother and just surrender to it.

This event constitutes the first stage of enlightenment in classical enlightenment studies (“spiritual awakening” in Hinduism and “stream-entering” in Buddhism).  It’s to be followed by even higher enlightenments, culminating in our Ascension.

Jai Ma!  Victory to the Divine Mother.  It’s awe-inspiring to watch her at work.

(See Part 2, transcript of the Mother’s remarks)


(1)  The Divine Mother in “Transcript ~ A Mass Heart Opening on This Planet,” Aug. 21, 2017, at http://goldenageofgaia.com/2017/08/21/transcript-a-massive-heart-opening-on-this-planet/.

(2) Loc. cit.

(3) The Mother says she does not need to use astrological alignments, although she may decide to delight us by using them. They reflect, but they do not create. (I wonder what symbolism 9/11 will be used for this year?)

(4) The Divine Mother in “Transcript ~ A Mass Heart Opening on This Planet,” ibid.


ARTIST APPRECIATION – Gratitude to unknown artist


The Difficulty Past Generations Faced in Discussing What We Easily Discuss – Part 2/2 – Steve Beckow @ Golden Age of Gaia


The Difficulty Past Generations Faced in Discussing What We Easily Discuss – Part 2/2

(Concluded from Part 1.)

What proves difficult for the author to describe becomes easy for us to understand the minute we add what we know about the higher dimensions and Ascension.

This new knowledge we probably take for granted.  But, in fact, anyone who has had a higher-dimensional spiritual experience will have had a door opened to them that is closed to the author. What was then a “philosophy” will now become a “realized truth.”

“I’ve been there and so I know how it is.”

Archangel Michael told us that we have access to knowledge that others do not have so we must lead in what lies ahead or there will be a leadership vacuum. (1)

“If no [lightworker] steps forward into [leadership] then there is a massive vacuum because many of the billions upon your planet have not yet learned, adapted and integrated the new tools – the fullness of this new energy.

“So [when non-lightworkers] are assigned … or try to step up … to create and to take the leadership role, they do not have the training and insight to do it in a way that is achievable. … So there is a lack, a vacuum of leadership.

“Now, who, upon this wondrous planet, has been hiding in the shadows or edging out, or in the limelight and is ready? … Who has been diligent and practiced patience and fortitude and stamina, and anchored the divine qualities? Who is it that is prepared to do this? Well, it is the lightworkers.” (2)

The passage above demonstrates knowledge that potential leaders will not have learned and that could make them incapable of understanding what is transpiring. But lightworkers have that knowledge.

We understand the process of spiritual evolution – that all of us are evolving our realized knowledge of who we truly are – Intellectual answer? God. But the truth must be realized – to complete our journey from God to God.

And we make detours in that journey out of service to the Mother or for other reasons.

And we’re entering a new environment in which the rules of dimensionality are again all of them changing.


Because it appears to be on the horizon for all of us, a heart opening would open to everyone the knowledge of higher dimensions, for however long the experience lasted. The transformative love that would then flow as a torrent, for as long as it does, is at least Fifth-Dimensional and perhaps Seventh-Dimensional (it doesn’t come with a guidebook).

Once one feels what life is like inside a Fifth-Dimensional space (or higher), so many things difficult to comprehend easily fall into place.


(1) “Transcript: Archangel Michael – On Mastery and Leadership, April 16, 2015,” at http://goldenageofgaia.com/2015/04/25/transcript-archangel-michael-on-mastery-and-leadership-april-16-2015/.

(2) For lovers of enlightenment studies, I recommend that you consider comparing Aurobindo’s enlightenment experiences with those of Franklin Merrell-Wolff. If we only had a reliable map, we could correlate their experiences exactly, but the two have followed a decidedly-similar trajectory.

Few other sages have given such detailed descriptions of their enlightenment experiences at every level than they have.

In my opinion, the best place for a lightworker to start on Sri Auribindo’s voluminous writings would be his The Future Evolution of Man. The Divine Life on Earth. Pondicherry: Sri Aurobindo Ashram, 1982; c1971.

If you want to jump off from there into his wider spiritual understandings, I’d suggest beginning with his Essays on the Gita.Pondicherry: Sri Aurobindo Ashram, 1972.

For Merrell-Wolff’s experiences, see  Pathways Through to Space. A Personal Record of Transformation in Consciousness. New York: Julian Press, 1973.

If you want more of this amazing “modern” sage, see Philosophy of Consciousness without an Object. Reflections on the Nature of Transcendental Consciousness. New York: Julian Press, 1973.



The Difficulty Past Generations Faced in Discussing What We Easily Discuss – Part 1/2 – Steve Beckow @ Golden Age of Gaia

Art: Heise Jinyao


The Difficulty Past Generations Faced in Discussing What We Easily Discuss – Part 1/2

I’d like to quote a passage from a contemporary article on Sri Aurobindo to demonstrate how knowledge that we take for granted was not available yesterday or was unfortunately rejected.

I’d also like to illustrate the inadequate and circuitous explanations that resulted, over matters which for us are relatively simple to explain.

It’s meant to demonstrate how we can be handicapped by a lack of agreed-upon and workable concepts.

I do not mean this exploration in any way as a criticism of the author, Peter Holleran, who is helping me understand the jiva, the psychic entity, as Sri Aurobindo called it, the everyday consciousness. He simply reflects the prevailing scholarly consensus.

Some readers may find this article difficult to follow. I won’t be offended if you put it aside.

The quote is from Peter’s article, “Sri Aurobindo and the Integral Yoga: The Ultimate Construction Project” at http://www.mountainrunnerdoc.com/page/page/5303855.htm

Aurobindo’s spiritual adventure began in earnest after a meeting he had with a yogi named Vishnu Bhaskar Lele. The two spent three days together in a solitary room during which time Lele told him, “see the thoughts entering from the outside. Fling them back, do not let them enter.”

The result of this was that Aurobindo had a change of consciousness in which he experienced, in his own words, the “divine Silence.”

In 1933 he wrote a beautiful poem, “Nirvana”, describing this state. In 1938 he wrote another called “Liberation”. While using the term Nirvana, he later affirmed that this was only the beginning of his realization: (1)

“I had experience of Nirvana and Silence in Brahman long before I had any knowledge of the overhead spiritual planes.” (2)

Whether this initial breakthrough was a realization of Nirvikalpa or Jnana Samadhi (two forms of absorptive, ego-less trance), or some type of Satori, is difficult to know. It sounds very much like what many sages describe as the inner Void where the “I” has temporarily disappeared.  (3)

Again, this is poetry, not philosophy. What is certain is that Aurobindo later argued for a state or condition that was superior to the realization of the traditional mystical or yogic variety; he attested to the need for, not merely the ascent of consciousness and celestial union with the Divine, but the descent of Divine light, and a transformation of the body. (4)

Aurobindo, with his earlier confession, then, either de-emphasized what he called “Nirvana” and “knowledge of Brahman,” placing more value on the eventual transformative process that he felt divinized the body-mind, or he was acknowledging the primacy of first achieving direct insight of the inner being (ie., the experience, in his case, of “silence in Brahman”) before the possibilities of ascended yoga (i.e., “knowledge of the overhead spiritual planes”), and, as he proposed, the subsequent descent of the divine light into the earth plane. [Problematic at the outset is this idiosyncratic use of the word “Nirvana”, which has no correlation with the traditional meaning. This will be discussed further on]. (5)

It is fairly clear, however, from his poem, “The Inner Fields”, that Sri Aurobindo believed in an emanationist philosophy similar to that of Plotinus and Sant Mat, in which there were reflections upon reflections of inner planes, with each higher realm more immediately expressing the beauty and divinity of the ultimate Reality.

What we lightworkers are routinely about here could be called “ascended yoga (i.e., “knowledge of the overhead spiritual planes”).”

“Reflections upon reflections of inner planes, with each higher realm more immediately expressing the beauty and divinity of the ultimate Reality” is what we daily and routinely contemplate here.

It’s said to be an “emanationist philosophy.”  To me it’s simply the realized truth.

Notice this passage:

“Aurobindo, with his earlier confession, then, either de-emphasized what he called ‘Nirvana’ and ‘knowledge of Brahman,’ placing more value on the eventual transformative process that he felt divinized the body-mind, or he was acknowledging the primacy of first achieving direct insight of the inner being (ie., the experience, in his case, of “silence in Brahman”) before the possibilities of ascended yoga (i.e., ‘knowledge of the overhead spiritual planes’).”

The knowledge of Brahman is a seventh-chakra experience. The word “Nirvana,” apart from Matthew Ward’s use of it to apply to the astral planes generally, usually is used to describe an enlightenment higher than Brahmajnana – Sahaja would be a synonym – but lower than enlightenments above the Fifth.

I consider it sound to say that the individual follows a process of “first achieving direct insight of the inner being (ie., the experience, in his case, of ‘silence in Brahman’) before the possibilities of ascended yoga (i.e., ‘knowledge of the overhead spiritual planes’).”

The direct insight into the inner being that unlocks the dimensional doorway is Sahaja Nirvikalpa Samadhi or Nirvana.

We free ourselves dimensionally through our cleansing/purification work. That work sees us complete vasanas, conditioned behavior, strong beliefs, and all the other residue of our uncompleted issues.

We’re helped there by such energy spikes as the Solar Eclipse and the increase in the Tsunami of Love generally as well as new energies like Porlana C.

What we don’t cleanse, Sahaja or Nirvana will eliminate. The fire of Sahaja is enough to burn to a crisp the seeds of our future (“latent tendencies” Hindus call them – or vasanas) that we call core issues (or vasanas).

Then comes “the eventual transformative process” that will “divinize the body/mind.” This is the entrance into the higher dimensions, unknown to most in previous generations.

So what Sri Aurobindo said is easily understood by lightworkers who’ve followed the Company of Heaven’s teachings, but wouldn’t be comprehensible to people unfamiliar with the higher dimensions, Ascension particularly, or spiritual evolution generally.

(Concluded in Part 2)


(1) As I refer to later in this essay, Franklin Merrell-Wolff also said that “nirvana” was just the start of his adventure, In fact it only opens the dimensional door, whereas many spiritualists consider it to be the end of the road – “complete” enlightenment.

(2) Sri Aurobindo, On Yoga II, Tome One, p. 294.

(3) It sounds to me like seventh-chakra enlightenment. Peter refers to that as “[Kevalya] Nirvikalpa Samadhi.” It’s also called Brahmajnana (God-Realization).

It’s the first transcendental experience we have but it’s not mukti or liberation.

It results in a second temporary heart opening, fourth-chakra enlightenment being the first.

Liberation is a permanent and complete heart opening that comes after Brahamjnana and is called Sahaja Nirvikalpa Samadhi. It is this level that opens the door to higher-dimensional experiences.

The fact that Sahaja means entering a higher dimension is consistent with its description by terrestrial sages as bringing an end to physical (Third-Dimensional) birth and death.

(4) Yes, there are levels higher than either “the Silence of Brahman” (Brahmajnana) or Nirvana. Many, many levels in subplanes of nine more dimensions and then another whole new world of the Transcendental after that.

This generation too has been asked not to neglect the body but to realize that, in our Ascension, we’re taking the body with us, making the Ascension mostly gradual and requiring us to honor the limits of our bodies.

Aurobindo’s was an “integral” yoga: it did not focus on leaving the body to ascend but on ascending with the body, in an integrated fashion. It’s very relevant to us today.

(5) Franklin Merrell-Woolf also used “Nirvana” in an idiosyncratic way.


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Both Gradual and Sudden – Part 2/2 – Steve Beckow @ Golden Age of Gaia

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Both Gradual and Sudden – Part 2/2

(Concluded from Part 1, yesterday.)

Leaving my account aside now, the Mother has pointed to a heart opening in our future. That’ll lead us to the Natural Self.

Enjoy riding the tsunami for as long as it lasts. Let it sweep you clean. This is the River Jordan that washes away our sins.

And it may end. Most experiences short of Ascension are temporary.

The train has at least one twenty-four hour stopover in Dark Night Canyon.

But what lies around the next bend after that? If you’re like me, you want to know.

This is one of the next stopovers: The loving you, the Natural Self blossoms into an all-wise, all-patient Being. That being I call the Higher Self.

Seeing both will definitely amaze you.

So there are two stops on the journey that I know about so far, two plateaus reached that will both astonish you. First the Natural Self and next the Higher Self. For all I know there may be other stops in between for other people. There are definitely more stops after.

Again, Ascension is both gradual and sudden. Knowledge of the Natural Self via a temporary heart opening is one sudden jump or realization. Knowledge of the Higher Self, via a vision perhaps, or some other event is another sudden jump or realization.

These sudden jumps are punctuated by measured spaces of gradual assimilation and unfoldment – well, just as you see me doing here – before another sudden jump occurs.

I’m assimilating everything I saw in or downloaded from the three-second vision of my Higher Self. Just as I had to assimilate the heart opening and the visions of mastery, abundance, peace, etc., so I also need to assimilate what I saw on this occasion.

As long as we remain in these physical bodies and take them with us, I think Ascension has to be both gradual and sudden.


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Both Gradual and Sudden – Part 1/2 – Steve Beckow @ Golden Age of Gaia


Both Gradual and Sudden – Part 1/2


My attention remains drawn to three different experiences I’ve had so far. They weren’t experiences of the non-dual reality. Two of them were the epitome of dualistic experiences.

I realize this discussion may be technical to some. I mean it as practically an anthropological record and I apologize to those for whom it sounds difficult.

Archangel Michael once pointed out that we lightworkers today are doing something different from the ancient sages.

The ancient sages addressed a small body of students and worked with individuals.

We lightworkers today address the whole world and work with the collective. That reflects a difference in assignment: We’re tasked with accomplishing a mass Ascension and the sages were tasked with accomplishing individual ascensions.

My task here is to discuss my own experiences in the hope that that proves helpful to others.

Archangel Michael through Ronna Herman made a statement so surprising to me that I drew back when I read ir. He described the ‘Natural Self’ below.

“You made a pledge that when the time came for you to step onto the path of Ascension, you would allow us to set aside your free will so that we could take whatever measures were deemed necessary to awaken you.

“For many, it resulted in a Soul merge, (1) and others who had already awakened to their Soul Self were ready for a merge with a facet of their Higher Self. (2) When the Soul finally merges fully with the Sacred Heart, (3) it is a grand reunion of monumental proportions. When your intentions are composed of wisdom overlaid with Love and projected with purity, you become a powerful source of Sacred Fire energy.  …

“Most of you, who have consciously made an effort to reclaim your Divinity, through whatever means you were/are attracted to, are among this advanced group of souls. You agreed to be the examples, and you are willing to do everything within your power to ease the way for others by becoming sentinels of Light, Wayshowers and World Servers.” (4)

The experience he doesn’t mention is the temporary heart opening, a fourth-chakra experience, which would precede the experiences described here.  It’s been described in other places. Let me put it aside and concentrate instead on the two experiences he does mention.

His descriptions fully coincides with my own experience.

The merger I experienced with the Natural Self is, I think, what he’s referring to as the “Soul merge”and awakening “to their Soul Self.” I’ve described mine elsewhere.  (5)

I had two experiences of the Natural Self. In one, I saw the vision of a red-haired man, who seemed unusually peaceful. Immediately upon fastening my attention on him, a deep peace descended on me.  I realized that this peace was the Natural Self.

Some months after this experience, I became aware that I was thinking of my Natural Self as being located “out there.”  When I saw that, a wall of belief dropped from me. There no longer being a wall between me and the Natural Self, we merged.  After that, there was just “me.”

Nonetheless there is reality and the illusion and they coexist. From that time on, I looked upon me and my Natural Self as a slinky. My Natural Self existed one staircase above me.  But we were connected. We were one.

Now put these two experiences aside and consider experience number three, a vision of what I came to know as my Higher Self. This is what Michael refers to as “a merge with a facet of their Higher Self.”

That Higher Self seemed to me to be of a higher-dimensional vibration than the Natural Self.

That vision occurred just before the Solar Eclipse and within the Emerald Gateway. You remember that the Tsunami of Love was also intensified.

I glimpsed a figure before which I was in awe.  It wasn’t the kind of blurry, TV image of a daydream. It was the crisp, movie-screen image of a theater.

Even though the glimpse was only for a few seconds, it was a much deeper experience than that of the Natural Self.

I was awed by what I saw. This magnificent being.

Not for a moment did I suspect that I was that being, on a much higher dimension, higher than the Natural Self.

It took perhaps two or three hours for someone to whisper in my ear: “That’s me.”  That’s me? Cannot be. I tried it on.

The realization that it was indeed me knocked me flat. That is to say, the experience had a rapid, discontinuous, and profound impact on me. It was not just intellectual, not just experiential knowledge; it was realized knowledge.

I’d blow my everyday circuits trying to experience the energy of that Being, given the density of my everyday consciousness.


Michael goes on to describe an experience in which “the Soul finally merges fully with the Sacred Heart.” That sounds like a reference to Sahaja Samadhi, the permanent heart opening that ends the Ascension process.

But I think there’ll be one more level or “jump” in between: What we think of as Brahmajnana or God-Realization. That’s a seventh-chakra experience that I think serves as a bridge between a merger with the Higher Self and Sahaja.

(Concluded in Part 2, tomorrow.)


(1) I believe this is what I call the Natural Self.

(2) Such as happened a few days before the eclipse.

(3) I believe he’s referring here to Sahaja Samadhi, a full and complete heart opening, the culmination of our Ascension.

(4) “Archangel Michael: Are You Ready to Embody Your Sacred Fire Energy?” Channelled through Ronna Herman, November 29, 2013, at: http://www.ronnastar.com/messages-aam/latest.html.

Another explanation from him is also relevant:

“We have asked of you, in preparation for your transition for Ascension, to call back into yourselves all parts, all what we refer to as aspects of your being that you have sent out on various missions and purposes, often, my beloved ones, in service to the Divine Mother and, of course, to me.

“But as you welcome these parts of your being back into your core, embrace them, celebrate them, but also acknowledge the various parts of who you are — angelic or archangelic, it matters not – starseed, star-being, hybrid, human and Earth-keeper, elemental, deva, fairy, man, woman or child. And within those pieces, embrace all the faces of who you are, because we do.” (“Archangel Michael: I See You! I Love You! I Will Engage,” Nov. 7, 2013, at http://goldenageofgaia.com/?p=288373.)

(5) See “First Glimpse of the Natural Self Today,” Feb. 21, 2017, at http://goldenageofgaia.com/2017/02/21/first-glimpse-natural-self/ and “Love Respects Our Free Will,” at June 4, 2017, at http://goldenageofgaia.com/2017/06/04/love-respects-our-free-will/ 



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Enlightenment in Context – Steve Beckow @ Golden Age of Gaia

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Enlightenment in Context

I’d like to make a few spiritual distinctions here to assist us in later discussions.

I’m offering a cross-cultural perspective on what may turn out to be the “sudden” steps in our otherwise gradual Ascension.

This article may not be for all readers. Please feel free to put it aside if it’s too difficult to follow.

These are the conventionally-described levels of enlightenment up to and including the Fifth Dimension.

(1) The Mother has promised us a mass heart opening. This experience occurs when the kundalini reaches the fourth chakra.

Buddhism calls such a first-enlightenment experience, “stream-entering.” Hindus call it “spiritual awakening.” It fills one with hope and confidence.

(2) Next in classical enlightenment schemes is a sixth-chakra enlightenment experience which westerners call “cosmic consciousness.” Hindus call it savikalpa samadhi (samadhi with form). I don’t know what Buddhists call it.  I have not had this experience this lifetime and so I cannot comment on it.

(3) The first transcendental enlightenment experience occurs when the kundalini reaches the seventh chakra.  Buddhists call it becoming an arahant. Hindus call it Brahmajnana (God-Realization) and nirvikalpa samadhi (samadhi without form; i.e., transcendental samadhi).

(4) The arahant becomes a buddha, the Brahmajnani becomes a jivan-mukta (liberated while alive) when the energy moves farther and permanently and fully opens the heart. Not the heart chakra, but the heart. The hridayam or heart aperture opens as it did in the earlier heart opening but now remains open.

The resulting torrent of love incinerates the vasanas or core issues. In the earlier heart opening, which I imagine is not as strong as Sahaja, the vasanas were held at bay for the length of the experience. But they were not eliminated. Now they are.

This latter state is what classical scholars would call mukti or liberation. It’s what completes our Ascension experience.

(5) If we end up in the Fifth Dimension, that’s definitely not the final stop in our much broader Ascension.

Here’s an example of a statement made at a deeper level of awareness of the Self than I’ve reached.

“All creation,
“Streaming out of the Self,
“Is only the Self.” (1)

I cannot make such a statement because I don’t know what Ashtavakra, the author, knew. I’ve never experienced anything streaming out of the Self – not yet, that is.

(6) The final level of all our enlightenment, we think of as “Home.” We’ve now gone from God to God.  But even here, new knowledge is upsetting my accepted beliefs.

The Mother has suggested that we can “come Home” to her and the Father whenever we need replenishment. I think this is what is meant by the 13th Octave.

Until hearing that, I thought it would take endless lifetimes to return Home.

This seems to reflect what Archangel Michael has said, that all the rules of enlightenment have changed:

Steve Beckow: Is the realm that we’re building and taking our physical bodies with us to altogether new?

Archangel Michael: Yes, it is brand new.

Steve: Brand new, and the rules have changed?

AAM: That is correct.  (2)

Not only are we entering into an altogether-new realm, which we’re creating as we go along, but such important matters as dimensional access are being rearranged.

I’m having to drop matters right and left that I thought were “established” by the testimony of ancient sages.

Truly much of our old knowledge will no longer serve us. We’ll be finding that matters are actually quite different and letting the old views go.


(1) Thomas Byrom, trans. The Heart of Awareness. A Translation of the Ashtavakra Gita. Boston and Shaftesbury: Shamballa, 1990, p. 6.

(2)  Archangel Michael in a personal reading with Steve Beckow through Linda Dillon, Sept. 16, 2015.  On another occasion, I asked him about the need for repeated enlightenment experiences before Sahaja, as Sadhu Arunachala had asserted, and he replied:

“When [the text] was written it was absolutely correct. But, as you also know, the governing rules have shifted and changed.”  (Archangel Michael in a personal reading with Steve Beckow, Feb. 17, 2017.)

St. Germaine has also said: “You see, all the rules have changed.” (“Transcript: Heavenly Blessings – St. Germaine on Where to Look for Results,” channeled by Linda Dillon, July 15, 2014, at http://goo.gl/OxNpnG.)


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